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I don’t yet know who I really am or who I was meant to be. What I do
know about myself is that I am very unique, independent and strong; I am sure I
can overcome any obstacle that is thrown at me from left field, which is
something I have had to do all my life. I’ve often heard people say, “You will
figure out who you really are once you go to college.” I don’t personally know
if this is true or not, but I am still waiting for this moment. I hope to learn
more about myself and grow as a person in Baruch. This was an impossible task
in high school because there were too many immature people and distractions,
but now that I do have time I want to focus on myself; my wants and desires and
nothing else.

There are a couple of things I am concerned about though; time management, motivation, and overall scores. I am the type of person who leaves everything for the last minute, but in college that isn’t quite working out. I have to constantly push myself to study and start the assignments ahead of time and not the day before it is due. It’s hard to sit and read for hours, but I have no other option because I want to earn the grades that I deserve. This is the path I chose and
it is the only one that will get me to where I want to be, therefore I have
stick to it and change my old patterns which will evidently get me nowhere.

Subject: FRO-DTD

Hey Professor ______,

I am writing to inform you that I missed the Midterm examination
that was given today because I was feeling ill and had to be hospitalized. I’ve
been studying a lot for it and would appreciate it if you could schedule
another testing day for me so that I can prove myself and earn the grade that I
deserve.

Thank You,

Ana De Leon

For close friends and family I am the come-to girl; I am the one they turn to when they need support and a shoulder to lean on. I am always there to hear them out and help them handle the situation properly. But who is there for ME when I need help? Why don’t I have anyone to lean on? Honestly, I now tend to keep things to myself and prefer not to involve others with my problems. This wasn’t always
the case thought; just like everything else in life, it can be traced back to
one thing.

Three years ago, I began to get minor breast pain and so
one day I told my “best friend.” Believe it or not, he started LAUGHING; making
a big joke out of the situation. He was like, “you always whining about everything.”  I am very weird and I won’t deny it, I laughed along with him. I mean, it wasn’t the first time I laughed at myself so that’s nothing new. I actually told a couple of other friends and I got the same reaction so from there on out I kept that “little” problem to myself.

Two years went by and the pain became a lot more frequent. It reached a point in
which it was unbearably excruciating pain and that’s when I decided to tell yet
another friend. Having known that cancer runs in my family, he took it very
seriously. After about a whole year of being insulted by him I finally agreed
to tell my mom and got it checked out… The doctor found a lump… That’s when I
broke down; I literally thought that was the end of me.  I got tested and THANK GOD it wasn’t cancer, but that is when I realized that I don’t really trust anyone. Out of all the people I know, I can only count on one person and that is pathetically sad. It’s like; if I can’t trust my friends and family, how can I ever possibly trust anyone else?

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My name is Jian and I am a quiet person. I do not like to talk when group of strangers or people I am not familiar with are present. However, if they are all my friends, it would be a very different case. I like to be with friends and I would not be so quiet at this time. I don’t want to get conflict with other people and I would choose to forget others when they did or said something that hurt me rather than getting angry at them. One of my friends once asked me have I ever being angry. I told him of course I did. Everyone has temper and it is just how well you can control it. In most situations, I think I am able to control it. I think I am just a man in the street. People say everyone is unique in the world, but I think there might be many people in the world who look like me or have similar personality with me. I am not so outstanding and I like to be this way because I don not want others to pay too much attention on me.

My three concerns about my freshman year at Baruch College are making new friends, reading assignments and the music class. All these concerns came from the differences between Baruch College and my high school. In my high school, there were many people who had similar or same background and culture with me. So it is very easy to make friends and get alone with them, but in Baruch, there are people from all over the world and I only know few people. There are also so many very long reading assignments that are very hard to understand. My music class is so boring that I get sleepy as long as I walk into the classroom. Once I determined to listen to the professor carefully, but I failed because of his hypnotic voice and his boring lecture. I am always afraid that I would fail the class. I think my first year in Baruch would make me become more independent.

What does the word “friend” mean? That’s a profound question.

I looked it up in the dictionary and it said that a friend is someone you like and enjoy spending time with. This definition made me recall a joke my friend told me. “In a zoo, there was a very ugly and disgusting monkey and everyone would vomit after seeing it. One day, I went to visit the zoo and threw up after seeing the monkey. The other day, you went to the zoo and saw the monkey, the monkey threw up”. I wondered if I would get angry if this joke was told by someone else than my friend. I enjoyed being together with my friends and it did not matter even though the joke was somehow mockery.

Friends had made an important part in my life and I used to make fun of them. They too, made fun of me but we never got angry because our intentions were not to hurt other’s feelings. So, don’t take the jokes too seriously and just dismiss them with a laugh. However, there was another version of the definition for friend that once confused me a lot. It stated that friend is someone you can betray and get benefit from it. In such case, we should change friendship into “friendshit”. If you had this kind of friend who made friend with you just to use you, you really got to say “Shit!”

It is hard to know if you are having a friendshit or friendship, but the existence of the former doesn’t mean that you should distrust anybody. In most circumstances, friends are all real and important in our lives. Sometimes you could even tell them something that you felt uncomfortable to talk with your family members.

Subject: Questions about semester grade

Hello Professor,

I just knew my semester grade in your class and I have some questions toward my grade. Could I make an appointment to talk to you about my grade. I am hoping the conversation with you would help me doing better in other classes in the future. I would be very appreciated if you are willing to give me a hand. Thank you.

Jian Jiang

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