Who Do You Think You Are?

My name is Ramses and I myself  am not completely sure who I am myself. I guess that’s the whole point of writing this blog, in hopes of communicating who you are to your peers or maybe just helping you figure out who you are along the way. Either way, I’m lost. I’m lost in this new surrounding which I call my school. The place which might be my second home for the next four years, considering how long I’m gonna have to spend in and around the buildings. Anyways, my issue with questions like these is that I never know where to start off. Perhaps the fact that I myself don’t even know the definite answer to some of these questions. I’m very indecisive, on ALL levels which is probably a good way to start off. My indecisiveness is one of my flaws to put it at best. I can never make my mind up on something, and when I do, I often regret it and feel like changing it. Maybe Baruch will could help me work on that, help work towards what I want, not what anyone else wants. Another thing with me is laziness, or lack of motivation, or whatever you feel like labeling it. This comes as a surprise right now, I somehow found the motivation to right this blog so early on even though half an hour ago I was about to fall into drug-induced like coma. I found motivation in something which helped me start this blog. Maybe it was the music. Maybe a mix of Lupe Fiasco, Kendrick Lamar, The Weeknd, Wale, and J.Cole form to stimulate me to get things done. I’ve always found myself falling back on music. It’s my escape from everything, my sweet serenity. My iPod goes everywhere I go, and when it isn’t there, I find myself empty. Surprisingly, in a lapse of 300 or so words, I’ve managed to not completely describe who I think I am. I guess that goes to show that I don’t know who I am. I guess it wouldn’t hurt to start now. On a side note, I never really did like describing myself, I always considered it corny, maybe it’s because I couldn’t think of words to describe myself. Well, I know I love music, like I’ve stated before. I love clothes and sneakers, especially sneakers. It’s a bit materialistic, but it’s my thing. I play video games and hang out with friends and family like any other person and love my family. I don’t know where else to go from here, I guess those who get to know me will figure it out along the way and could fill it in for me. As for the school, I don’t know what to think, oh the irony. One of my concerns is being able to focus on school, I know I’m bound to get a job soon and I hope I don’t have troubles balancing each like I did in senior year. I worry about the amount of work I’m going to get and the amount of time I must dedicate to do all of this work. Lastly, the school reminds me of high school a bit, and the fact that I take public transportation everyday doesn’t help to reduce the nostalgia. That isn’t a good thing, but time will tell and maybe I will find my place here. I just want to get away from that high school type of feel, the way my schedule is doesn’t help to reduce that feeling. It’s different from high school but I still get those flashbacks, whether they be good or bad. I just want new experiences, that’s all. Lastly, I’m not sure as to how my first year will change me. If it does, I only hope it’s for the better. Only time will tell, but until then…Peace.