Well, my name is Jaquevia and I can tell you honestly I don’t know who I am but if you were to tell me to describe myself using only lyrics, that was be a no-brainer. However, what I don’t understand is why we’re expected to know who we are at such a young age when most of us don’t even have enough life experiences and knowledge to definitively answer that question. I mean, isn’t that the whole idea behind growing up, going off to college, and learning to be on your own? Yes, I could tell you my personality traits, the good and bad, ones that my astrology sign lets me know I have, the others that people constantly tell me I have, or the ones I see for myself but I don’t think that’s necessary going to tell you who I am. Simply enough, I am an eighteen year old girl who’s in her first year of college. Although, I’ve been waiting for a long time to get to college, I didn’t realize the concerns I would have going into a new environment. My biggest concern is, don’t judge me or think I’m a creep but, socializing. I’ve always been independent, therefore I became comfortable with doing everything on my own, so for majority of my life I never looked at socializing and having friends as a big priority. However, over the summer I realized that although is go to be independent, I probably won’t be able to enjoy my life and my college experience to the fullest if I don’t have people to share it with. So as of now, I’m working on being more open to people and not being ‘okay’ with being myself. I am also worried about that fact that in high school I felt I wasn’t challenged by the work I receive and how its going to affect my outlook on homework in college and if I’ll be able to handle it because I had gotten so used to do just enough, and not working up to my potential but still doing well in school. In addition, I guess it’d be safe to say that my second concern correlates with my last one, stress. I am definitely afraid of getting too overwhelmed in school and stressing myself out. Its going to be very important for me to learn time management and not to have so much on my plate that I can’t function; that also means I’m going to need to sleep more. Which is the total opposite of the way I thought in high school. I think my experience at Baruch will be different from the experience I had in high school in that I will challenge myself, become more active in clubs that I actually want to be a part of and also better myself as a person; that’s my one of my personal goals for my first year. I believe that in my first year, I will become a better all around person, and hopefully acquire some ‘street smarts’.
First off, I would like to say that no one is hear to judge you. Second, I know its hard to overcome this socializing issue because you have been so accustomed to being independent but you can still be independent and interact with others and you have help. They’re people willing to help you with this starting with some of the people in your freshmen seminar. From what I have seen you interact will with them and that’s a start. Also the fact that you want to join clubs is an amazing way to deal with this because from my personal experience of joining team baruch, the people that join these groups tend to be great people that enjoy socializing inside and outside of Baruch. Finally with the school work, yes it tends to be more than Highschool but its manageable if you put the effort and if you need help with any kind of school work feel free to ask me or anyone else. I am sure this first year will help make a better person even though you are already an amazing individual.