Author: kateryna.bakhnak

Wow so the semester is ending and all I have to say is that I cant believe that its already over! Baruch has been an interesting experience that’s for sure, it has been everything that I expected it to be and so much more. I have met so many different people who come all over the city as well from outside areas. I have learned that I HATE THE TRAIN. Being stuck on the Q train for two hours is not fun. But over all my first semester in Baruch has been pretty good. Classes are not to difficult other then math but I gave up on our professor. She can be speaking Ukrainian and I still will not understand her that is why I have resorted to tutoring which is a big help.
Lets see what would I do differently if I could again, nothing really. I like my first semester and even those there were some bad days, who doesn’t. It’s funny but I think that I have actually grown as a person after starting college who knew. College so far has been an experience to remember and I really cant wait till Thanksgiving when all my friends from high school come home. For they said that I would not be getting the full college experience and even though they were right in a sense since I still live under my parents roof and I am not free to do everything I want. Its pretty nice to come home and not think about groceries and stuff.
I cant wait for the next semester and its many surprises.

Looking in the mirror I see a tall, blond haired, blue eyed girl. A girl not yet a woman but no more the little girl she used to be. Everyone sees this when they look at me, some claim to see more, they say that they see a Ukrainian, and a girl who adores cats. But the mistake that people make is that they claim this as their viewpoint of me. No that is not how you see me these are just things I have implemented in your mind and you just go along with them.
Let me tell you what I see, what I really see when I look in the mirror. I see a girl who acts like she has everything under control even when things fall apart around her. I see a girl holding her head up high and acting like the world should be thrilled and over joyed that she is walking upon it. But actually this girl has so many old scars and wounds that its a wonder how she keeps things together. Oh no this girl is not a nutcase and she is not going to loose it anytime soon, but she wants to. Oh how she wants to let her guard down and let the world in. But this girl has learned the hard way that when you let people in, you will get hurt. People would take advantage of you rip your heart out stomp on it, beat it up, cut it up and throw it away leaving you with nothing.
So this girl learned the hard way that its better to seem strong and in control then weak. People respect and fear those who are strong.
As I look into the mirror I see me, a girl that people would describe as weird, crazy, bitchy, stubborn, strong, scary, sarcastic, funny, loyal, and above all an acquired taste. Yes I am an acquired taste no person who has ever met me and spent time with me, could ever say that I am anything but an acquired taste. If people have the stupidity of calling me nice, well then you haven’t met me have you!

If you were to ask me who I am I would tell you that I am girl with dirty blond hair and blue eyes, that I am 5’8″  and that I wish that I was an inch taller. But most importantly I would tell you that I am Ukrainian and that I am proud to be a Ukrainian especially one that was born there and speaks the language. Besides that I am also a very driven person my whole life is centered about becoming a lawyer and every thing that I do or not do is based on my need and want of becoming a lawyer. I maybe many other things like a daughter a sister and a best friend but in my eyes I am a girl on a path that will lead to her destiny.

Being in Baruch college is an important step in my path towards becoming a lawyer and even though I am a very self assured person I still like all college students have concerns when it comes to college. My number one concern is that i’ll let my four years in college pass by without really enjoying them. I am afraid that i’ll be to focused on getting this four years over with so that I could go to law school. Another one of my concerns is that I wont do well in college that I wont get all A’s and B’s and that I wont have the grades that I need to get into law school. Lastly my concern about college is that it will be to much and to overwhelming that I wont be able to handle it!

Haha what makes my college experience different then high school, well first of all the whole having a class only twice a week instead of every day is weird  and confusing sometimes. Second of all making new friends all over again is harder then it was in high school because when we entered high schools we were still kids and we didn’t really have that much to tell about ourselves. But in college its completely different. Its hard retelling people who you are especially in the begging when everybody is making nice and you don’t know who could be your friend and who can’t be.

I really hope that the first year of college will change me but not to much. But how I am not sure if I was to guess I’ll probably say it will teach me to manage my time more wisely cause I always had a problem with that. It’s not that I put thinks of to the last minute which I don’t, I have never been a procrastinator. But I chase take to long to do things and hopefully after this year I will learn not to.