monologue

Sometimes I wish I can go back in time and change my mistakes. Don’t you wish there is a time machine where you can go back in time? Maybe I’ll invent one when I grow up.  You never know… So let me tell you my story. When I was in 5th grade, the time where I was very immature, I didn’t know right from wrong. I moved from Georgia back to New York City and I was trying to fit in. If you’re a 10 year old, all you want to do is make friends, lots of friends. So, there was this really sweet girl that was soooooo friendly to me on my first day of class, which is currently my best friend, maybe more than that, she’s like a sister now. But obviously, there was a history we had to go through that made our friendship stronger.  So, you know how girls are sometimes. We’re always passing rumors and stabbing each other’s back. Yeah, I know..how childish right? Well, I bet everyone had one of those times. Anyways, so everything started from jealousy and attention. I was friends with this girl; I’ll just call her Jessica..since I don’t want to use names. I guess she was really jealous of my relationship with my best friend so she lied to me about so many things and basically instigated me; and it worked! I can’t believe I was so stupid to believe it…but I mean, we’re kids…we don’t know better. Plus, I guess I was somewhat a dramatic person. So, basically, it started from that and I hated her more because I saw her flirting with a guy that I had a crush on. It just gave me more reasons to hate her, when it really wasn’t what it seemed. So Jessica and I started on a tour to tell the whole school not to be friends with Lu and surprisingly. Nobody talked to her. She was ostracized by the whole school. The problem didn’t just end there, we tried to scare her and made her give us money, but it was mostly Jessica’s plan. I still had a soft heart. Well…my point of the story was, after two months passed and I realized Jessica was very fake and not a good friend. It just didn’t feel right. I started to miss the old days with my best friend.  I remember it was raining one day and she was outside my balcony asking me to forgive her. Jessica was over my house that time and she kept instigating and I was swaying back and forth. I listened to Jessica and threw my best friend’s hairclip down and balcony and told her to leave. I’ll never forget that day..it was such a depressing moment and I regret what I did. Even after all that, she forgave me when I called her one day because I missed her. I realize I was under the influence and pressure. I guess it was the attention, gossip, all that stupid stuff. I learn to not always go with the crowd. Good friends aren’t always easy to find.