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A few years ago, I was at home in Tennessee. I was having a great day. The weather all weekend was perfect. I was beyond happy.

On my adventure to my room, I had to go through a hallway lined with three mirrors against the wall. My mom had purchased a few new mirrors and was redecorating. We left our doors to our house opened all weekend. Keep in mind, that this is extremely normal in a Tennessee neighborhood especially on a nice day. Why not? As I was walking towards my room, I noticed a weird looking string behind a mirror.

It moved. It was definitely not a string.

It was by biggest fear. It was a snake and it was in my house.

I screamed bloody murder and jumped onto a chair in the bathroom which was right by the snake. I am beyond terrified of snakes. It’s unreal. I screamed, I cried, and I was frozen on the chair.

My mother came running, because she thought that a man was in the house trying to kill me. Yes, that’s how hysterical I was.

I couldn’t even speak. It took all my willpower just to get it out that there was a snake in our hallway. My mother came to the rescue and basically chased it out of the house. I have never had anything like that happen to me.

Let’s just say that I had nightmares for weeks. I even made my mom basically walk me everywhere for the next week and I was extremely paranoid for months later. I constantly had nightmares about snakes being in the room with me hiding and so I frequently had my mom check under the couch, behind doors, or in any spot that a snake could be. It sounds funny. But, it was the worst experience and I am forever scarred.

How I felt in that moment is how I feel now. I am scared. I am scared of what will happen in the next few months.. in the next few years. I constantly play different life scenarios in my head and it scares me what all could go so wrong.

I guess that is life. Things happen. Things change. I might be scared for what is to come in the future, but I’ll take it as it is. What other choice is there?

Baruch Voices really brought an insight on how other students feel. The performers made me feel as if they were the ones telling the story. At first, that’s what I thought it was. I was somewhat confused by it and then realized that they were performing monologues written by other students. It made me want to go and write on my personal blog in a creative manner. I appreciate the performers for being able to express the words of others effectively. I couldn’t do that.

This is one of my biggest complaints about Baruch students. I absolutely despise walking out of Baruch especially during lunch time. I get that they must smoke, but is it REALLY necessary to do it right in front of the doors? I love that Baruch is making an “attempt” at making it a “clean space,” but since there isn’t any enforcement not much will change. No offense to the smokers, but smokers rarely care about how their smoking affects non-smokers. Smokers don’t get irritated my the smell of smoke the way that non-smokers do. This really bothers me, because it’s completely inconsiderate of everyone else. People obviously smoke in New York, but it’s never a huge amount of people in one area smoking away. I feel like I develop lung cancer every time that I step outside of Baruch.

To the smokers, please be considerate of the nonsmokers and at least move away from the door closer to the corner where we can at least avoid being bombarded by the smoke. Baruch only has two entrances, so please be awesome and step far away from the entrances. 🙂

I would like to clarify one thing right off of the bat. Despite the fact that I am from Tennessee, I do not listen to country at all. It drives me insane that people automatically assume that along with the many other stereotypes.

My favorite genre would be rock, but more specifically, I mainly listen to post-hardcore. There are so many different types of styles within rock music that I feel that it is necessary to include my preference. I actually worked with a music venue in Nashville called Rocketown. Although they occasionally have different types of artists perform, Rocketown is mainly catered to rock music. Because I was apart of the Rocketown team, I saw a lot of bands and was introduced to many local bands. This list was both easy and difficult to compile. Some of these songs include lyrics that relate to me completely, but some of the songs fit my personality by the actual music rather than the lyrics.

I decided to just do a video playlist through YouTube. Some of the songs have videos, while some just have the lyrics. 🙂

1. Saviour by Lights.

2. Zombie by The Pretty Reckless

3. Bitch by Plasticines

4. Toes by Lights

5. All Signs Point to Lauderdale by A Day To Remember

6. Mr. Owl Ate My Metal Worm by D.R.U.G.S

7. A For Andrew by Attack Attack!

8. Miss Nothing by The Pretty Reckless

9. Roads That Don’t End and Views That Never Cease by We Came As Romans

10. Sweetest Kill by Broken Social Scene