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I was in middle school when the pressure started. The pressure of college. It was over five years away and it was already there to haunt me, only getting worse with time. So in high school when I would get the constant, “Oh, where are you looking at school?” or “What do you want to go to school for?”, I never knew. I was just a kid. Or so I thought, until the day when I had to start really thinking about it. Only I didn’t really know where to begin. I literally had no godly idea about what I wanted to do with myself. It also didn’t help that I was surrounded by my friends that had their lives all planned out. “I want to be a history professor”. “I want to be an actor”. “I want to be an actuary.” Damn these people. I mean, I’m by no means a stupid kid. I just never put much thought into the future, and high school taught us that that was “normal”. But it shouldn’t be normal for kids to have no direction, it should be normal for them to find direction, and find it when they’re young. But at least for me, being thrown into the world when you have no bearing was just the kick in the ass that I needed.

I was always a pretty good student, and my acceptance to Baruch’s Dean’s Scholars program helped give me even more motivation to get myself on the right track. That’s why I have been loving my college experience thus far. Shifting into this new age of my life has granted me a reboot in a sense, and I plan on making the most of it. Being in a completely new setting with all new people wouldn’t have been my thing a few months ago, but now I love having the ability to do so many new things. Being in the city also helps to make that even more possible, there’s nothing you can’t do in here, and I try to remain out and about as much as I can.

I also surprisingly haven’t experienced homesickness yet, I always have loved being home. But I guess that came as a part of my transformation, for I haven’t missed home too much. Of course I do miss my family and all my friends from high school, but I still get to see them from time to time. Two of my best friends from high school go to different schools in Manhattan, so I do get to see them pretty frequently, so I can’t really complain about missing anyone too much.

The one thing I am lacking in my college experience in comparison to high school, however, is a lot of involvement. I was very involved in high school, especially with musical and performing groups, which unfortunately Baruch has a major lack of. Yet I hope to find something I can get involved with soon because I miss doing things like that, and I would hate to have my college experience not have a lot of involvement. Getting deeply involved will also allow me to find more friends and people to spend time with, which I know can only increase my enjoyment.

And that it really what it is all about: enjoyment. I do have aspirations for myself now, I want to pursue a degree in marketing and land a good internship next year if possible, but I also don’t want to miss out on my college life. I know that I made a good choice in Baruch, and I hope that my college experience is all it can be.

Halloween costumes from this year with new friends I met here at school 😀