Kenny’s Monologue
My name is Kenny. I am tall, skinny and needs glasses. I denied wearing glasses during high school because it made me feel uncomfortable. College is a new start so I gave it another try and begin wearing it more often. My parents wants me to be fat so they force me to eat food even when I am full. I am not sure if this goes for most Chinese parents, but my parents will nag me to eat more and more until I feel like going to the bathroom. If I do not finish the food, the leftovers will not be food tomorrow. I cannot stress how many times I secretly threw out the leftovers.
I identify myself as a lazy, but disciplined person. Although I am not fond of school work, I still do it because I am disciplined and know the consequences. I think my parents made me like this, because they tell me the consequence of not going to school every day. Some things they say it in a nice way like “work with me in the construction place if you do not go to school.” If they are saying it in an angry way there are so much Chinese curses that I do not even understand or translate into English.
I play the role of a brother, a son , a student, a gamer, a friend, and an explorer. I have three younger brothers and they are difficult to control even though I am the oldest. I am a social gamer. I get together with my friends from high school and we make up to 10-way Skype calls and play with each other. I am also an explorer because I am still searching for my major and testing classes for majors that I might go into.
In my freshmen year, I hope to get at least a B in all my classes and complete all the required courses. Life in college is much more difficult in terms of managing time and testing. In high school, it was just review my notes and I get good grades. In College, it is review my notes, make flash cards and make study sheets and my grade still isn’t what I wanted. Managing time is also hard because we have so much time to manage. I use it up really fast without knowing and the work I still have to complete is due in a day or two before I start it.
Halloween is almost here, and I get anxious of many things. The thing that scared me the most is the first scary movie I watched “the Grudge”. I remember running down streets at night staring at dark alley fearing the stare of the grudge. What is even more scary is as I am talking about the grudge, I noticed a black object on my hand. I pulled it off my hand but it just popped and I actually thought it was the grudge, since there is blood on my hand. No, it is not the grudge, I just killed a mosquito in the middle of his meal. Although I do get paranoid when I bleed. I am a little blood phobia, because I had fainted one time while bleeding . The nurse said I had low blood sugar at that time, and gave me a candy bar. However, after that incident every time I see myself bleeding I start to recall the bright white light when I fainted. I might have got a glimpse of the afterlife who knows.