Blog 2
16 03 2011
Humble Nwachukwu
Freshman Seminar
All along I have been writing these free writes to answer the questions posed at me. However, looking at them now, I notice that I have said so many things about myself which are unlikely for me to say. In some respect I have become my own therapist- consciously and subconsciously analyzing myself. The faster I wrote during the free-writes, the faster the next thought came to me, and also the more honest it seemed. I learned that although I am instinctively driven to succeed, my drive for success is of a mundane consequence which is ridicule to my entire existence. I never honestly expose myself in a paper I know someone will read, because I always see myself as different and in part because I don’t like to talk about myself. I always think that once you start talking about yourself, you lose your meaning, and sound burdensome to hear. However these free writes have turned me into a blabber mouth. Making me say a whole host of things I had no business saying, but I am thankful for it. Otherwise how would I have known that I am on the bandwagon like everybody else – chasing greatness through money. I have never really considered if there is something else I would really like to get involved in that money isn’t a part of. Actually I have sat down and thought about it and I couldn’t come up with anything. I know there’s something, everybody have got something that they love doing I just don’t know what I love doing but I know I have got to find something I love doing. Maybe that would be the story of my life “the quest to find a purpose.” Well this might not really be, the structure of a monologue, but it is in a way the crux of my free-write. So concludes my soliloquy.
A. i see myself… i don’t know. i see myself differently everday. but in general i see myself as a person desperate to succedd.
B. freshman seminar has introduced me to free-writing. i like it because you get to learn so much about people and about yourself. so in freshman seminar, i have developed a better interest in connecting with people.
