Freshman Seminar Spring 2011: F6A

My eyes…how I love my beautiful, deceiving, manipulating and charming eyes… the way I can tell a person off with my eyes to the way I can charm with my eyes has to seriously hilarious. I mean, I like a lot about myself but my eyes…. Don’t play no games. I guess it would be better if I had more confidence… that has got to’ be what I absolutely hate the most about myself….like c’mon…every single time someone tries to throw a compliment at me, I’m like a little turtle hiding in its shell….how flipping embarrassing. Every time I think about myself I have like this huge confidence but in public….chhp…so frustrating. I guess that makes me kind of honest. I mean… when I think about who I really am, I kind of identify myself as an honest (and kind of rude) person. I tell it like it is with no hesitation and I’m proud of it. Like seriously, why act like I’m someone I’m not or act like I have interest in something I don’t… ill pass. Especially with my little sister following my every move…ill b damned if she turn into one of the fake females ‘ve ran into…humph. I have an important role in life and that is being the role model for my sister. Antonette Faith Wiley, my little diva with the same beautiful, deceiving, manipulating eyes. My baby sis is the most important person in my life. I have to make sure she grows up to be a beautiful educated woman…mommy is just always busy and I know damn well my dad aint gonna make it happen. I got to make sure my mom is proud of both her and i…I guess that’s what I’m afraid of the most…..disappointing mommy. Mommy did so much for me and to make her disappointed because she thinks I don’t got my head on my shoulders and im not making the right decisions…styll freaks me out. When I see her happy, I’m happy. Well, when I see anyone happy I’m happy. Nothing makes me happier than to brighten someone else’s day. I kind of feel like I made a difference in someone else’s life…and that’s definitely something that puts a smile on my face. At least that’s a time I can smile… when im not smiling, I’m in school…BANG! School is my life. Work….work….work. every little bit of free time I have is dedicated to all of this school work. I guess I like school because its helping me to become successful in life but seriously…this needs to end…soon. Thinking about school just makes me hungry. Doing homework….i got to eat some thin’. It’s sad how many excuses I’ve been coming up with to not do my homework and I definitely need to stop acting like a chef when it’s time to do homework when I know damn well I don’t cook any other time. I should get a theme song to get me going with all this homework because I definitely don’t have one. That’s definitely my biggest challenge with school right now…. Managing my time with this homework. If it wasn’t for this rent due the 1st of every month id definitely quit this job. I’m sick of having no life between work …school…and homework every day…and I just started school….BANG! I do like the experience though. I’m loving going to class…since I’ve started school my mind just feels so…. Open. College is definitely a good experience right now…. Guess I’ll have to stick with having no life for the next 4 years…

A. I see myself as a down to earth person more than what i thought before i wrote my monologue.
B. Freshman seminar has made me more aware about myself and my personal feelings and habits. I grew stronger in free writing and enjoy it.