Freshman Seminar Spring 2011: F6A

Currently, there is nothing on my mind right now because nothing in particular is hovering within my head. In life, I have a personal theme song; it’s by The Pixies and it’s called “Where Is My Mind.” This is my theme song not only because it has a personal meaning to it, but because I think it reflects everyone at one point in their life. It’s basically such a mellow song that makes you think deeper into your thoughts. It makes you wonder about life and everything that is going on in ones’ current situation.

What I like about myself. I don’t know…probably the way I am, since I am a particularly good person. I also like the fact that I get things done. For example, I always do what I have to do because it’s the only way to move forward. So now there are also a few things I like least about myself. Like sometimes I don’t care about things and once I’ve decided that I don’t care, that’s pretty much it for anything. However, this mostly happens whenever I go off track, which seems to be another downfall from me; I get bored easily. Another thing I don’t like about myself is that I have a bad temper. It takes a lot to get me ticked off, but when I’m actually mad, I get pretty bad. The way I identify myself is actually pretty simple. I think it’s the way everyone else does so too. What I am referring to, is appearance because that creates an image/identity for everyone. Now the role that I play in my life is that of a sister, an aunt, and a loyal friend. However, in a recent event, I used to be a girlfriend too, but I broke that off because I noticed I was heading to the wrong path. No matter how hard one tries, you can’t always save everyone; no matter how much you care for them. Having said that, there are certain people that are very important to me; several of them actually. Some of which come before others but nonetheless, I love them all. Most of them are friends and family of course; but the latter is a given.

Deep down, what I am afraid of…I actually don’t really know. Actually, scratch that because there is one thing that I am afraid of: losing my best friend. Fortunately, I’m not talking about anytime soon, because our relationship right now continues to stay strong. I can honestly say we complete each other because we are like one. She is what makes me happy whenever I am sad and even happier when I’m already happy. Whenever we are together, we create great memories, all of which will last for a lifetime. A million years could pass by and our special bond would still be there. Thankfully, I am making plans with my best friend tomorrow because it’s been a while since we’ve seen each other. Personally, this pretty much sucks because I’m so used to seeing her everyday. Now that we work and go to different colleges, we are always on the move because, as we all know it, life does not wait for anyone. I won’t lie; the sudden separation has been hard on me but I’ve been able to manage things and balance everything out pretty good so far. I think that I just have to focus on school for the time being, while things calm down. I just need to see my best friend; which is why I’m excited for tomorrow. It will be like rejuvenating something inside me because the thing that is very important to me is friendship. I feel this way because in the long run, that is what gets you through life. Friendship blossoms from many other things, like love and so it’s very inspiring thus lasting throughout a lifetime. I just value friendship a lot because I think that it’s a beautiful thing to share and possess between one another. It is the memories and love that make it sacrosanct and last forever.

So far, school is going well because I like all of my classes and teachers. I’m simply irritated a bit though, because I had to change my availability at work and that was pretty chaotic. They made it such a hassle for me when it could have honestly been so much easier. I had to go and switch all of the days I worked for the following two weeks because of their incompetence. However, my relationship to school is great so far. Having said that reminds me of a time when I felt embarrassed in school. This was back in high school where it is required to do a portfolio for each class, every semester based upon a topic instructed by the principal. So this was my first year at The Academy Of Finance And Enterprise because I was a transfer student from Long Island City High School. I knew the requirements and whatnot, but I honestly did not expect such high standards from that school and I think it was because I was so used to the nearly non existent standards in LIC. As a result, I handed in a portfolio that included everything that was needed, but nothing more, while everyone else’s portfolio exceeded the expectations and requirements. Eventually though, I got the hang of the atmosphere and quickly adjusted to it because I learned that I enjoy learning. This is something I’m experiencing at Baruch too because I have fun here and it also has a great atmosphere that is just so friendly and easy to get used to. As a result, it makes it easier for me to learn and go about with my duties. Personally, I have actually missed school but that may be because I took the semester off. Even so, I enjoy learning because it’s a great feeling, despite how others may feel. On the other hand, my biggest challenge in school at the moment is getting all my work done. Nevertheless, I try my best to get everything done because I know it will severely affect my grade despite any excuses.