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Each of these songs has its own appeal to me in the matter of college. My moods change immensely depending if I have control of my life in that moment of time. College is still a new concept for me, so my mind is still adjusting to the pressures of the work load. Most songs on the playlist are not happy, motivating pop songs. It was not my choice to go to college, but my mother’s. Unfortunately this is still an open wound, a raw argument that she and I have from time to time, especially that she lives three thousand miles away. For is particular matter, I put “Numb” and “A Place for my Head” by Linkin Park on my playlist. Actually, most of the songs sort of relate to this specific one I’ve pointed out, like “Inside the Fire” by Disturbed, and “Creep” by Radiohead. Creativity and schoolwork never came easy to me growing up, and still does not. I have worked twice as hard as my peers to get where I am now and I still don’t think it is good enough. I feel like I always have my family and professors watching me to see if I break from the pressures of school, which is why I put “Somebody’s Watching Me,” by Rockwell, in the playlist. Because of my past struggles in school, sometimes I feel completely lost in my classes, which is where “Dazed and Confused” by Led Zeppelin comes into the picture. There would be times where I tried to solve a problem from all angles I can possibly find, only to draw a blank on the subject.
Not all experiences I had so far in college are negative. I am determined to turn things around. I forgot most of the opportunities that this fine institution provides. I do not like getting help unless I really need it, but at this point in the semester, I give in. I made tutoring appointments and study more. I started to understand some things said in classes and I would leave my classes happy and accomplished, with just a little headache from the lectures. When these times occur, I smile like a doofus and I feel energetic, I have loud dance music in my mind. Just keep in mind, I love Korean pop music, which is why two songs on my playlist are “Fantastic Baby,” by Big Bang and “I am the Best” by 2NE1. It makes me feel almighty and powerful when I have control.
One thing I absolutely love about college is that I have no Friday classes. When I finish my class at 12:25 on Thursday, I mentally scream “Thursday” by The Weeknd all the way home and straight to my bed and sleep. My boyfriend is really supportive of me and is a big factor of keeping me strong during hard times. If I’m struggling on an assignment over the weekend, he’s there with me helping. My song for him is “Chasing Cars” by Snow Patrol.
