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Me. Minus the whole being white thing.

Due tomorrow? Do tomorrow.

That’s how I felt during my first semester at Baruch. I feel like I was always rushing, but that’s because I was always wasting my time.

College was both under and overwhelming; I had classes I felt were way too easy, and others that I still don’t know if I’m going to pass. But I’m anxious to see what the final grades will be, and how well I did.

If I’m going to make it through this, I have to learn how to manage time, and get rid of procrastination. If it wsn’t for all the nonsense I do, my GPA probably would be a full point higher probably!

I made a few good friends, learned alot, and matured some. All in all, it was a good experience, and I can’t wait for the next semester.

Me. Minus the whole being white thing.

Due tomorrow? Do tomorrow.

That’s how I felt during my first semester at Baruch. I feel like I was always rushing, but that’s because I was always wasting my time.

College was both under and overwhelming; I had classes I felt were way too easy, and others that I still don’t know if I’m going to pass. But I’m anxious to see what the final grades will be, and how well I did.

If I’m going to make it through this, I have to learn how to manage time, and get rid of procrastination. If it wsn’t for all the nonsense I do, my GPA probably would be a full point higher probably!

I made a few good friends, learned alot, and matured some. All in all, it was a good experience, and I can’t wait for the next semester.

Me. Minus the whole being white thing.

Due tomorrow? Do tomorrow.

That’s how I felt during my first semester at Baruch. I feel like I was always rushing, but that’s because I was always wasting my time.

College was both under and overwhelming; I had classes I felt were way too easy, and others that I still don’t know if I’m going to pass. But I’m anxious to see what the final grades will be, and how well I did.

If I’m going to make it through this, I have to learn how to manage time, and get rid of procrastination. If it wsn’t for all the nonsense I do, my GPA probably would be a full point higher probably!

I made a few good friends, learned alot, and matured some. All in all, it was a good experience, and I can’t wait for the next semester.

Today, I found out I won’t be achieving my dream.

I failed my math exam. I’d be surprised if I scored any points at all. I haven’t checked my score, but I received the “you’re a dummy” paper, saying that maybe, just maybe, it would be in my best interest to drop the class. Better luck next time, champ. With the failure, my chances of getting an A in the course are pretty much gone. And with the end of my A in math goes the end of my hopes for straight As, and a transfer to Columbia University sometime next year.

My dream was to transfer to Columbia after achieving a 4.0 GPA in my first year at Baruch and acing the SATs. Of course, I’d need even more than just straight As, as transferring to that particular Ivy League school is even more difficult than being directly admitted there, but that was the bare minimum I’d need to be considered. Now, I’ve got no shot.

I’m not an idiot; I don’t even dislike math. I just seem to put every single other thing possible before doing my schoolwork and other necessary things. I watch anime and Family Guy on YouTube, I play games on my PC, and I have a Facebook addiction that’s out of this world. If I would have spent half the time on math that I’d spent doing other things this weekend, I would have scored 200% on that test.

Honestly, it’s not even worth it; my internet addiction, I mean. None of the stuff I do here brings me any closer to my goals. I have 2 Facebook accounts with about 150 “friends” between them that I barely know, and who barely bother to reply to the things I post most times. What’s the point? I keep asking myself that question, but I never get an answer.

Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m not looking down on Baruch by coveting a Columbia degree. Honestly, I didn’t even think I would have been accepted at Baruch until the day I recieved that letter in the mail. To be honest, I even think the education I’d recieve at Baruch would be comparable (hey, math is math, regardless where you learn it), but the prestige… the prestige of an Ivy League school is what I need. I have a lot of potential that I’ve neglected for a long time, and I’m ready to see how far it will take me. A prestigious degree will help me along the way immeasurably.

So, I have to make a change. I’m not going to get anywhere doing the things I’ve been doing. I’m going to quit the bullshit, cold turkey, right now. No more Facebook, no more anime and video game binges, no more. It’s time to focus.

At first, this assignment was very hard to do. I still don’t know who I am, and in many ways, I don’t know who I want to become.

All I can offer now are the things that made the biggest impression on me so far in my life.

That said:

WHO I WAS

As a kid, I think that the thing outside my home that influenced me most was Japan and Japanese culture, particularly video games and anime:

I think I spent more time with Mario in my childhood than with some of my family member. heh.

Yes, I can beat you. It wouldn’t even be close.

A masterpiece.

The first anime I ever saw. By far my favorite to this day.

I spent most of my time indoors, living out fantasy lives. I wish in a way that I would have been more outgoing, and even now I’m looking for ways to make meeting new people easier, but I’m slowly changing for the better.

WHO I AM NOW

I can’t afford to spend any more time waiting. I have to go after my dreams now if I’m ever going to be able to achieve them. So now, all I do is:

Study

Look for work:

and work out:

I havent been to the gym in months, but I’ll be starting back soon. I think I still look ok though. =D

WHO I WILL BE

I want to be successful. That, above all, is what I want. I think my ultimate goal is to become like this guy, fictional though he may be:

Lex Luthor.

All the evil schemes and attempted Super-murders aside, he embodies everything I aspire to be. Driven, focused, determined, rich, powerful, and brilliant. I should be lucky to become half a Lex Luthor.

Well, that’s me. Anyone who’d like to get to know me a little better, feel free to send me a friend request or a note.