Monthly Archives: April 2013

I love museums and have learned to really appreciate art and cultural pieces of work. The museum was interesting because the whole museum seemed to be about Southern Asian culture and art. I loved the sanskrit writing and also the process on how they make statues.

Writing about your life is hard; it is hard deciding which moments are more important than others, and which things about you should hide or share. As you can tell I think a lot, I am very introspective but can also be obnoxiously loud . During high school I battled with clinical depression, I hate telling people because everyone seems to think they know but they don’t. I am very proud of myself because I can control my emotions better, and I no longer get panic attacks. I have matured a lot, but I try also to not take life to seriously. I love to party, go out to eat, and experience the city. I love my friends and family with all my heart, and they  make me feel like the luckiest girl in the world.  I want to travel,  experience life, be happy, and have awesome relationships.

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My life is good I think even though, I am still unsure of what to do in life. For the first time, I saw a lot of hardships when I was in Nepal a few years ago. One of it was seeing young children selling postcards and, asking for food and money in tourist attractions. They should be in school but they were out in the capital city streets trying to survive. I saw young children studying and doing their homework using candles or torch lights. Even though I was living comfortably, I disliked my stay during the first few weeks because of the new environment. But, I am glad my parents brought me along to Nepal for a visit. My experiences in Nepal made me appreciate many things. I wish I was a fairy godmother and send all the young kids to school. I admire people who have already found their interest in life and are making their dream come true. Sometimes, I wish I could just curl up in bed and hibernate.. I had taken basic accounting classes just for the fun of it in school when I was in Singapore. I guess that was the reason why I decided to come to Baruch to major in business. Despite living in a place with endless possibilities I am clueless. Oh well but still, I am extremely grateful to my parents for funding my education and fulfilling my desires. I chose to go to college. I do enjoy my classes most of the time even though I drag myself to college. I know I am still a freshmen and it is okay to be confused. I am sure there are others who feel the same way. But, I hope I will not be for a long time.
Man, I need more positivity in my life.

I didn’t want to go to college, I thought it was just another institution you give money to so they can demand things from you. This has not changed. I have been coerced to go to college and if I could get out without consequences I would. So long as I’m here, however, I will finish what I start. I intend to get at least some of my money’s worth. I plan on getting good grades, good connections, and a good job. I’ll probably die trying. The only service here I’m genuinely grateful for is the gym.

When corporations get bailouts, it’s called having business acumen and when poor people get welfare, it’s called being entitled. When you criticize Christianity or Islam, you get called an atheist or a hater at worst but when you criticize Judaism, you get called an anti-semite. Israel recently became the only country ever to boycott the UN Human Rights Council, a council that includes North Korea. This is because Israel was recently found to have been comitting genocide on Ethiopian jews by forcing birth control on them. But you don’t hear the media reporting this. The most you hear about Israel is how Obongo and Netanwacko are having peace talks, meanwhile Israel just yesterday broke the ceasefire truce between it and Palestine by firing missiles at Gaza. North Korea just held a South Korean factory and 400 of its’ workers hostage. Brazil, Russia, India, China, and South Africa are planning to form their own world bank and currency to free themselves from the crashing euro and the petrodollar. World War Three is upon us, the question is whether it is going to be cold or hot.

The more you know.

I’m not entirely sure what the structure of this blog is intended to be but essentially it seems to me that it should resemble a biography of sorts.

My name is Olger Solano. I’m not entirely sure where my first name comes from but I’ve heard that it may be a form from the Scandinavian name Holger. Although I’m thoroughly Ecuadorian. Essentially who I am is not the sum of all the basic facts that you may find in a data base but by my relation to others. After high school I helped take care of my mother and helped raise my little sister. All functions of my existence had those two ideas as constants. That I was a son and a brother. Everything else about me is in flux as I grow and accumulate more experiences. I’m not sure what else we spoke about in class… I have a bleeding heart but don’t really like people much. I’m determined to do well in my classes and I work a lot. When or if I get some free time I hope to spend it biking around the Manhattan Waterfront Greenway.

The power animal my sister gave me

I am Annisa rahman, a girl of 20 years old. I am curious in nature and love to live with my close persons all through my life. To me, life is an opportunity. I have only one life time to see, to taste, to know and to share. I feel so sad when I found a relationship is broken or ended for whatever reason I might have. I identify myself as a shy girl, but very talkative with known person. I identify myself as a daughter, sister, lover and probably a future mother. I like family, I am a family person. My family includes my mother, my sister, my cousins and my friends also. Relationship is the most important thing to me in my life. Because these are priceless things you can ever have. I represent myself as a citizen of Bangladesh, a small Asian country. I was just chasing my dream and eventually got admitted here in the Baruch College. I am afraid of getting lost from known place, known persons and I also fear when people get furious and kill other people. A single smile of my loving person can make my whole day. But sometimes, I need a lot of food and good sleep to sooth me. I always try to avoid hurting others but sometimes I end up hurting my families or friends. Those are the most embarrassing situations for me. But if anyhow, I can make myself useful to any others need, that is the moment to rejoice for me. I feel so good of myself and start to see the world as a place of hope. My personal motto is, “live, laugh and love”. Because I just said, I have only one life to do all my crazy things and I don’t want to regret for any misuse of time in past that I shouldn’t have done. I am pretty satisfied with my life. A caring and lovely mother and a best friend, who happens to be my life partner, are the biggest accomplishment I had so far. They added color to my life and make my living worthy here.

I don’t know man, I really don’t. I thought I was going places; I was going to make it big. Then it all went away. I don’t even know what happened. It seems I should go home and tell my mom I’m a failure, that I wasn’t good enough. But that won’t do. I’m not a failure. How can I fail if I haven’t even attempted anything? Yeah, I was going to make it big, but make it big in what? I never had a plan, but more importantly I don’t think I ever wanted a plan. Maybe just hanging on to that sentiment was enough. Hanging on to the feeling that I was making a difference was fulfilling. And I never really cared that I wasn’t actually doing anything. And I don’t really care now either, to be honest.
I guess sometimes you ask yourself questions that you already know the answers to just to feel better. I just want to live my life. I want to have fun with my family and friends, the people I care about, and not worry about much. But there’s so much to worry about, and I just can’t bring myself to worry about it. Getting an education so I can get a job to support me is something that I should probably find important. I don’t find it that important at all.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying the world doesn’t need progress. The key to moving society forward is definitely education. But does that mean that everyone is cut out to push society forward? I don’t think so. It’s definitely not for me. Some might say that makes me a bad person. Maybe it does. But is education really the only way? As a society we’ve become so focused on technology and progress, on money, that we’ve forgotten our fundamentals. People don’t seem to enjoy life the same way I do.
Maybe it’s just a problem of the times changing. Maybe I’m just bad with keeping up. But I don’t really need to keep up. It should definitely be reasonable for everyone to coexist, leading different types of lifestyles, but it’s becoming harder by the day. Society has a way of making us focus on things such as getting a degree, or settling down. I just want to adventure. I want to experience the world in its natural state, to go around having exciting experiences, meeting interesting people. Granted, it is definitely possible to do these things in today’s society, but it still doesn’t warrant a sense of carefree-ness. Yeah, I think I just made up a word, but it’s accurate.
I guess I’ll just have to deal with it. Maybe it’s just a problem of me not experiencing enough yet. There’s probably something that I’ll find enjoyable. That’s part of the reason I’m even in college. I’d be content with just a regular job, just getting by, but I really want to gain more perspective. I’m sure everything will work out.

The piece that I liked the most at the Rubin museum was the Lotus Mandala of Hevajra. To be honest, at the time I am writing this, I don’t even completely remember what it looks like. I also don’t know what its actual religious meaning/purpose is. All i remember is that it looked cool. It was such a complex piece yet it wasn’t very large, which made me think of all the hard work that the craftsman had to put into it. There were many elements to it, but it was simple. It presents a powerful image from the moment you look at it. I think it was the most beautiful piece there.

I migrated from China with my family on May 28^th, 2009. Life has been changed when I moved to America since everything was totally different as in my hometown, and I felt that was most challenging time of my life. This took me a long time to acclimatize the new environment. After one year, everything was getting on the right track, but I felt certainly responsible to myself and my family. At present, I have to take care of my children, and think of their future, and I don’t have that much free time. I need think how to feed my children and my family. I know my mother is exhausted with my children, when I go to school, she need to take care them. I really appreciate about my mother’s sacrifice. In addition, I don’t think that I am good-tempered. I was not that respect to my mother, especially when I was so tired. It is impossible for me to sleep very well at night, and so many things I need to be response, so does my mother. Sometimes, I just felt which way is belong to me? How can I choose my life? Is that right way for me? Do I need to keep in that way? Where is my future? And so on… I know that is the life I have been chosen, there is no way to whip round, and it is useless to regret. In fact, I know that is not so good, but sometimes I just couldn’t control myself. I really felt sorry about that. I don’t want my mother felt unhappy. She sacrifices herself for our family so many years, without any complain. How about me? For now, I did not give back anything to her, except burdens. When I asked her, what do you want? Her answer always is as long as you all fine with everything. Then I will tell her, if one day, she leaves, how can I alive without her. My mother is most important than every person, and everything for me. I love her.