I have not a clue
Posted by sh167454 on April 1, 2014As I sit in Newman library, the day before this assignment is due, I have not a clue what to write about. A monologue? I know exactly what that is. I perform them all the time on stage. That’s what I do. But to write my own? About something that pertains to my life? I have not a clue how to start. Not a clue.
I often find myself playing the parts of others for an audience. Reading over scripts, memorizing them, and portraying a completely different person. Scripts that have already been written for me. Innocent daughters, psychopaths and even “that person who breaks out into song for no apparent reason” are who I’m used to being. Not myself. I just can’t seem to do that. So for me to write something for myself to perform? And expose my feelings or experiences in front of the whole class? That’s something I have not a clue about. Not a clue.
So what exactly should I write about? My childhood? Life changes? Relationships? I could do that, but I wouldn’t know where to begin. So as you can see, before even attempting to write the monologue, I have a million questions. Who are these questions for? I have not a clue. So how can I answer these questions? I have not a clue.
So I’m sitting in the Newman Library, still contemplating how I can write a monologue to submit. And all at once… I realize I already did. So this is my monologue. What’s it about? I have not a clue.