I consider myself Noshin Fiza Rabbani, it is as simple as that, or rather as complicated as that. There are many things that make up who I am, like being a daughter, a sister, a coworker, a student, and a friend. In each situation people see a different side of me. My parents and siblings see my lazy side, when I don’t want to get out of bed on the weekends or make my bed or do the dishes, while my coworkers get to see the energetic side of me as I work with children. I am a mix of many contradicting traits, lazy and energetic, shy and outgoing, serious and fun.
My main concern regarding Baruch at the moment is how I am going to manage getting to my sociology class on time. There is a lot of work to be done, and so I stay up very late trying to finish everything which makes it harder to wake up in the mornings and manage to get to class on time in order to avoid the situation where I am at the other side of the door reading the sign that claims I am more than ten minutes late and wont be permitted into the classroom anymore. Going along with that my second concern is being able to keep my grades up, there is a scholarship that I hope to be receiving at the end of the year and cannot do so unless my grades are kept in good standing. The third concern I have is about remaining the same person that I used to be before I came here. I don’t want to be one of those people who looses themselves under the pressure of studying, I want to be able to remain more or less the kind of person I was at the time of entering college.
There are many differences between my high school experience and my college experience. There is a lot more freedom here and things have to be done much more independently now. The way the courses flow is also something that is different because through out high school there was two semesters to finish a course and the class met five times a week at least. Now in college half a semester is given to complete the course work and each individual class only meets twice a week so there is less time spent with the teacher, and most of the learning happens outside of class.
My first year of college has already begun to change me, in high school I had terrible time management and work ethic, but since starting college I have become much more serious about my studies. I am not to sure how else college will change me, perhaps it will allow me to find new things that I am interested in, or discover things that I didn’t even know about myself, but I guess it is one of those things where only time will tell.