Author Archives: Marie Anne Baltazar

The Theory

David Bowie

When we think of rock music, most of us think drugs, alcohol, dark lyrics and really loud music. Most people think of the likes of David Bowie, The Rolling Stones, Kiss and Nirvana. We remember the ones who got caught up in the game of rock music and crashed like Nirvana’s Kurt Cobain who committed suicide at the age of 27.  We remember the intense makeup and wardrobe of Kiss and David Bowie.

The Inspiration

While it is true that rock music is full of loud sounds, dark lyrics, obsessions, and sometimes drugs and destructive behavior, there is more to the music than insanity.

"Escaping Insanity" Drawing by Marie

 To me and to most of the people who listen or sing rock music, whether it’s classic rock or punk- rock, it’s a way for us to express the intense emotions we feel or go through in our daily lives. Most of us do have a couple of demons we are trying to fight. However, singing and writing keep us sane.

The Truth

Kurt Cobain

It’s dangerous for a person to not have a way of dealing with life’s heartaches. It is necessary for a person to have a coping mechanism of one way or another. I do agree there are many rockers who end up greatly under the influence and suicidal.  However, there are still many people like Pink Floyd, Skillet, Green Day, and Evanescence who have been in the world of Rock N Roll and have come out victors over their demons.

Growing up being different was always a goal for me. To me having the latest fashion was not the priority, having a unique fashion was. Today that belief is not widely accepted. In the fashion world people wear anything that someone famous and rich does. People try to stay on the safe side of the world.

Being Different

Sasha with "normal" outfit

For the past 10 years the fashion world has not showed a hint of excitement or uniqueness. From designers to “fashion icon”, everything has been an imitation of someone else. I pray to see the day where people will accept the idea of being different as part of the norm. I wish to see where we could all walk around not looking like an exact clone of each other or someone else. I beg to be able to walk down the street and feel like I am my own person. I want to be able to feel that it is ok to be me and no one else.

The Fear I See

Today many are afraid of being alone. Many are afraid of being rejected. We want to look like our friends do. We want to fit in like a perfect puzzle piece. We don’t want to be the person who stands out. None of us wants to carry our baggage alone.

Being Rejected

It makes sense to feel that way because whether we are 15, 25, or 30 years old we want to have someone accept us. However what are we willing to put on the line? Would we have to give up our beliefs? Should we have to lose our values? Would we have to give up our identity? Maybe all of that doesn’t even matter anymore. Today it appears that we are all carrying ONE identity. It seems that we have all become part of the crowd, nothing to give and nothing to lose.

Me with different outfit

I wonder then…does that make anyone who strives wrong or rebellious. Should I not wear my pink fishnet shirt with my black pants and black hand gloves because no one else does? How does one become one’s own view? It would seem that our views have become so confuse that we are only accepted if we all turn a blind eye and become a perfect puzzle piece.