Natasha B. DeSouza

Final Thoughts

I do not know where I see myself in the next three years.  I could very well be an avid member of the Baruch Scholars, or using my experience here to drive success elsewhere.  In either instance, the values instilled in each and every one of us in the program will always remain.  I will be diligent in my work, timely in my execution, and graceful in my efforts altogether.  The staff here has been more than generous in their excitement to push us forward in our academics and worldly ventures.  My friend Nadia and fellow Scholar has taken the initiative to create her own club at Baruch through the help of staff members and faculty.  MD has worked alongside Professor Hahn and the MakerHub staff to get across the concerns our communication class had and more importantly he stood up for us and voiced his opinions.  Constructive criticism and overall scholarly camaraderie were displayed that day.  Dr. Locke who has offered her experience in psychology to fuel our curiosity in things most of us never even think about.  She even inspired one or two of us to major or minor in her very field.   She has offered me person guidance as well when things have seemed to not have an outlet.  Then there is Mr. Medina whom each of us has had extensive meetings with him to offer guidance and help schedule our spring semester classes.  And let us not forget Tamara; she has offered us her time, support, and appreciation for all things “Freshman.”  She is there to pull you aside and ask if everything is going okay and if you need help, she is always there…just what we all needed to hear.  Seeking guidance from those around you, especially at Baruch seems to be the essence of the school itself.  A fast paced commuter school with faculty with hearts that are understanding and pure which make you slow down and breathe.  The angst from the stressors of classes and the demand for high grades can easily be balanced with help.  Sometimes we forget that we are not alone after all.

Baruch Scholars Contribute

As students, the last thing on our mind is how to serve the community.  We are just getting the hang of taking express elevators and finding the cheapest food to eat nearby.  We are selfish.  To be conscious of this is like saying you do not care, but this is not the case.  The little things matter:  smiling in the hallways, waiting for your new friends after class, helping someone find their room, and much more.  Just being nice can go a long way.  Encouraging your classmates to attend a study group or to just study can also show how much you care.  Pushing others to reach their potential, seeing what maybe they do not see in themselves, serves as a reminder that you are in this together.  A happier, united front of Baruch Scholars is the stepping stone to embody what it means to truly influence the community.

Our first step is to contribute to our groups in Fro to actually put some thought into our personal community service projects.  If we choose something meaningful to us, then there will be more of an incentive to do it well.  At the end of my senior year I wrote “Make a difference in this world” in every single of one of my classmates yearbooks.  This correlates to our Honors Program because we are given the opportunity to make that difference, that extra push all of us college kids need.  Giving back to others is our moral duty as human beings; if it’s not our money, then why not our time and energy.

Don’t ask why

Art is the expression of creation.  I express how I am feeling through it.  Movement, growth, acceptance can all be portrayed through color, paint, photography, fashion.  All that is me is art.

I relate to fashion more than any other art form because it is expression in its purest forms.  I wake up every morning feeling different.  Life experiences shape who you are, so why wouldn’t I be slightly different in every instance.  Therefore, my ever changing being cannot be defined.  I choose my outfit in the morning because it helps me to show how I feel for that day.  Bright colors for those sunny days, the happy times.  When I feel edgy, I mix tones and color pallets that would be considered unexpected.  Fashion is not mainstream, it is art.  It is different for each and every one of us, whether we like it or not.

Taking pictures just got easier.  We all have phones.  Most of us have social media.  Photography is a growing art form everywhere because of its accessibility.  I took an AP 2D class in high school and it completely opened my eyes to the lens.  Not the physical lens on the camera, but the lens of perception.  Art can be perceived in a million TRILLION different ways because we all have our opinions.  Lord knows we all have our own opinions.  Perception is how you see it, so what I see is not what you see.  That is what i love about the arts–there is no definitive answer no matter how hard someone tries to tell you otherwise.  Entitlement is often connoted with negative feelings, but everyone is entitled to their opinions.  My lens for my portfolio for the class dealt with self-portraits, which to many seemed glaringly vain, but to me felt most at home.  Self discovery through the arts…I didn’t even question it.  My lens transformed from a heavily coarsed idea of myself to the centered form of my being.  I mean it is about self discovery so I chose to portray myself from the beginning as hidden because I cared way too much how others thought of me.  I transformed to a vulnerable self where makeup was not an option and I was in my natural state.  To accept yourself, you have to be yourself.

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