Monthly Archives: September 2010

I think.. that I am many things based on the roles in my life and what the environment had changed me into. In terms of the environment and maybe some inevitable roles that I had to take on, it would be an older sister, a daughter, a friend, a lover, a student, and etc. Expectancy placed on older sisters are usually heavy and burdened with responsibility. At home and outside, I am placed with the orders to make sure my younger sister doesn’t get into any trouble, doesn’t get involved with people with unfavorable reputations, and guide her with as much as I’ve known the four years that she had not lived while I was alive. As a friend, I am loyal and try to make people laugh and have a good time. I like to take my friends out to all the great places I know, the smiles on their faces are enough for me to be satisfied.  Aside from the typical roles, I consider myself a digital artist, a dreamer, a writer as well as a dedicated eastern cultural fan. (ranging from studying their music to holidays and common traditions.)

My top 3 concerns about my freshmen year at Baruch college is getting acquainted with all my surroundings and the people, handing in assignments on time with a new system involving online access, as well as being able to fully enjoy my stay here..  I had worried about getting lost in Baruch, considering the fact that I had gotten lost even in my senior year of high school. (Blame the missing classroom sign numbers!) But after a few days, it is not a major issue, even though I still take extra precaution making sure I don’t miss the train or fall asleep and end up in another state. OTL.. I am also very concerned with my memory of my blackboard and baruch username passwords and users. I still find it very confusing and I can’t seem to remember the passwords without a written reminder. (Meaning I can’t log in to library computers as of yet.) Aside from those concerns, I am also worried that the droll monotonous lectures in some of my classes can possibly render me unconscious even at my best efforts in fighting it off. Sadly I admit I have fallen asleep in one of my classes for what seemed to be only about five minutes, but I already fell behind in three different topics. I don’t really enjoy coffee either, which can prove a bit of a dillemma in staying awake. I’m sure that through time I can get used to the sudden change of educational methods, but for now I’m still stuck in a rut.

Considering everything I’ve said above, this also will make my college experience different from my high school experience.

I think that my first year of college will drastically change me. In a good light, I suppose it will make me more mature, organized and open-minded. I can brag about how much I pay for my textbooks, how early I have to wake up to catch the train and be surrounded by lusty immigrant workers, how I end up staring off into space until my next class and actually paying seven dollars for my lunchtime meals. In a negative aspect, I think it’ll transform me into a typical college student with severe under eye bags and bloodshot eyes. To sum it up, college will raise my intellect while weighing heavily on my already unattractive self, which is probably not going to aid me in social gatherings. AT ALL.