In senior year of high school, I thought of myself as a real leader. I was a head of a couple of commissions/clubs and felt like a real contributor to many others. I knew almost everyone in my school and even if I didn’t know them, their faces always seemed familiar and I was confident that they knew me. Now, I am back to square one. I feel exactly how I did four years ago. I’m a little “freshie” in such a large community. Even if I try to get involved I would never be the same contributor I once was. The only difference between now and four years ago is that I am now titled as an “honors student.”
When I hear the phrase “Baruch Honors” I immediately translate this to mean “Baruch Leader.” I feel as if I am responsible to be a representative of the top Baruch has to offer this world. I am aware that this title is a great honor but I also know that it comes with a price of great pressures. As an honors student, I am always expected to outperform the average Baruch student and will always be looked up to as the honors kid. If I don’t live up to these expectations I feel like I am letting down my high school for not being able to do much with the great education that they handed to me on a silver platter. I also would feel like I let down the Baruch admissions office by showing them that it was a mistake to give me this honor. Because of these reasons, I am determined to prove that they did not make a mistake and that I can truly become a Baruch Honors student.
Aww Daniel. I know exactly how you feel. The pressure is nerve racking. But don’t worry, you will always have the Baruch Scholar family to lean back on. We need to all thrive together. I believe even thought right now it might not seem that one day we’ll make a HUGE impact on the Baruch Community I have hope that we will. We’re all “freshie’s” as you say but we will beat the odds. Trust.