During my early stages of childhood, I was the only daughter my parents were actually taking care of. Both my sisters were in China. When my older sister came I had to learn to adapt and share everything with another human being. That taught me to be more giving. Before that, I had basically been considered an only child. I didn’t even know what it meant to share. I would cry all the time and want everything my older sister had. I cried so much that my eyes got infected and I had to get surgery. That experience taught me about suffering. I learned that you don’t always get your way and sometimes, it ends up really sucking. However, after both my sister came from China, i learned about family and being kind. I learned to be more generous and caring too. I learned to be a better person. In college I hope to meet more people that push me to be a better person. I expect to be challenged in every single class and i expect to be able to over come those challenges. By the end of college, I would think that I would have outstanding time management skills and have a much greater knowledge on the world around me. I am, however, concerned that i will struggle in certain subjects and i won’t be able to maintain my GPA. Another thing that frightens me is not figuring out what i want to do. I have known for a very long time that i would like to go into the field of business, but i have not figured out with area specifically. I don’t like the feeling of not knowing what I want to do in life. I was hoping college would help me figure that out. However, if college does not help me figure it out soon, i twill probably lead to anxiety.
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Alison,
What you’ve learned from your family will go a long way in college. Surviving siblings is though, trust me I know ( I have a brother). It is because of him that I’m able to get through some of my lowest moments.
Don’t underestimate the power of positive thinking. I’ve had those moments where I was worried about my GPA too and felt that I was never going to pass a class. Those thoughts only weight you down. You have yourself and your family (both genetic and bearcat haha) to rely on. We won’t let you down. 😉
Alison!
From what I’ve seen of you in our calculus class so far, I have no doubt that you’ll be able to conquer the challenges to come. I think that, if anything, the fear of anxiety is probably something that will lead to anxiety, so I feel that the best advice I could give you (as someone who also does not know what to do in life) is not to worry about it… but I also know that people tend to get mad at me when I tell them not to worry about things that they’re worried about. In reality, it’s probably not the best thing to say at all (LOL)…
So figure out the things that make you happy, and do them! I don’t think you have to do what makes you happy for a living to be happy, but knowing what will help you cope with bad times is a huge step in keeping stress and anxiety away. Hope that helps, though it’s fairly obvious advice.