Gee says “using language we must say or write the right thing in the right way while playing the right social role and (appearing) to hold the right values, beliefs, and attitudes.” In Gees essay Literacy Discourse and Linguistics we are forced to look at language from a different perspective.

This experiment has forced me to recognize the majority of conversations I have are within my own head and try to understand analyze the nature of these “conversations.”

Learning is extremely context based

The majority of my time is spent actively learning. In order to do this

I’ve also found that when focused although my body may be present what most would recognize as the “self” couldn’t be any farther. This intense focus and an innate passion for abstraction are why I believe I adopt these languages.

As I said before learning is extremely context based. The purpose is what drives these different languages. When I’m faced with a difficult task I try to understand it from the perspective of someone who’s already mastered it.

In order to do this, I need to create context. I do this in two ways, by learning the basic level of knowledge just under what it is I’m actually trying to learn. By trying to understand how people who’ve excelled at I’m tackling think and making adjustments to own way for processing.

I think this is my way of tricking myself into believing I’m a full member of a discourse. This is comforting and makes attacking my goals much less intimidating.

It is much scary to think about advanced calculus as a college student trying to understand advanced calculus as opposed to a mathematician who has a problem to solve. This context also gives me more of a reason to invest in my learning. Obstacles now become problems that test my intellectual ability as opposed to arbitrary hurdles that don’t really matter in the greater scheme of things

I find purpose in learning by relating the subject to personal goals. If I can’t relate it to a specific personal goal that in goals in the category I’ve classified as “cognitive excise” these activities or problems don’t have any correlation to actual goals but I see them as a way to strengthen my ability to think in an abstract way and process information.

I create this language to turn myself into the type of person able to attack these problems. Much like people adopt discourses to convince others they belong.

These different “internal discourses” are also fine-tuned through apprenticeships. In its most basic form is probably mimicking aside from writing an email. Those two although began with mimicking my mother have been influenced by so many because I’ve had the privilege of knowing so many who have a greater understanding of the English language and use it beautifully and I’ve also come into my own as a writer and speaker

The purpose of peer talk I’ve found is mostly to comfort, inform, and motivate (majority of the time in that order)