My father is a serious and stern person who barely expresses his emotion openly. Like most of kids who pursue help and win approval from their fathers, I try my best to impress my father. However, my efforts seem to be in vain as my father seldom praises me in my academic performance and other aspects of life. Most of the time, he will say: “Modesty helps one go forward, whereas conceit makes one lag behind.” This destroys my once inflated confidence. He is a man standing solemnly and aloft on the mountain tip where I spare no effort to reach. I must admit that at times I even question if my father really loves me. As time goes on, I find my father is right that a person should not boast his achievement because there is always someone who is better than you. My father’s strictness has shaped who I am now. Sometimes, comparing to others and finding our own weakness is a really helpful way to inspire us to make a higher achievement.
Opening a new chapter in my life, I expect college to be a big performance stage. College will no doubt be a competitive place not only in academic filed but more in personal skill. I know myself is not a loquacious and active person like my father, which seems to be a disadvantage especially in job interview, person to person communication, in-class participation. Since Baruch has so many clubs, volunteer job available, I hope I can find the best fit, get involved and improve my communication skill.
Having experienced one month college life, I find so many discrepancies between college and high school. College is more autonomous and yet stressful. It seems that I always have a lot of books to read, plenty of research to do. Upcoming test is like an invisible hand pushes me forward and prevents me from slacking off. Keeping up grades is always the most importance responsibility for a student. I know I will work on and try my best not to let anyone down.