What does love sound like?
Shouting coming from the room next door
The banging of walls, the falling of chairs
So many pieces are missing from the puzzle
Sometimes you’re walking down the street and you find one
The car door slamming, the man shouting at himself, the child dragging her baby doll on the concrete.
Blurry spots become tangible memories.
It’s supposed to feel like clarity but it really only validates the hole you feel somewhere in your body, the realization your carver left you unfinished.
What does love feel like?
Love is a stranger,
Love is breaking yourself for someone when the irony is that you’ve never been whole in the first place,
Love is pain, abuse, pain, abuse, pain
The cycle continues with whoever is next, playing parallel to the past.
Your soul is screaming for you to see every welcome is not to be accepted
They were the ones who were supposed to protect you, instead they showed you love that stains the pages that haven’t been written yet
And at the same time, the tears are unable to flow.
So much is determined before we get a chance to think
We feel everything that is given to us
Those early years become so imperative.
We let it become our expiration date.
What is love?
Could it not be like this? This is all I know.