Retrace Backwards
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| Title | Retrace Backwards |
| Content | I? ?was? ?not? ?always? ?a? ?confident? ?writer.? ?I? ?always? ?thought? ?I? ?was? ?much? ?more? ?confident? ?in? ?the? ?
mathematics? ?field.? ?My? ?journey? ?as? ?a? ?writer? ?starts? ?pretty? ?late,? ?it? ?wasn’t? ?until? ?my? ?junior? ?of? ?high? ?
the school? ?where? ?I? ?found? ?my? ?real? ?passion? ?for? ?writing.? ?It? ?was? ?during? ?the? ?time? ?where? ?I? ?had? ?to? ?prepare? ?a? ?
college? ?essay? ?for? ?the? ?admissions? ?process.? ?During? ?this? ?process,? ?I? ?went? ?through? ?two? ?different? ?
essays.? ?The? ?first? ?essay? ?I? ?wrote? ?was? ?short,? ?boring,? ?and? ?cliche.? ?I? ?only? ?brought? ?up? ?my? ?family,? ?and? ?I? ?
had? ?no? ?context? ?about? ?myself? ?like? ?the? ?colleges? ?wanted.? ?I? ?knew? ?I? ?wanted? ?to? ?do? ?something? ?different.? ?
While? ?I? ?was? ?writing? ?my? ?second? ?version? ?of? ?my? ?college? ?essay,? ?I? ?thought? ?about? ?how? ?I? ?could? ?
separate? ?my? ?life? ?into? ?different? ?portions.? ?My? ?childhood,? ?my? ?upbringing,? ?and? ?my? ?future.? ? ?
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I? ?thought? ?about? ?each? ?part? ?of? ?my? ?life,? ?and? ?how? ?they? ?affected? ?me.? ?I? ?saw? ?my? ?childhood? ?as? ?a? ?
utopia,? ?where? ?things? ?were? ?amazing,? ?and? ?I? ?was? ?completely? ?happy.? ?My? ?upbringing? ?was? ?a? ?dystopia,? ?
where? ?I? ?was? ?constantly? ?at? ?a? ?harsh? ?battle? ?with? ?myself,? ?and? ?the? ?things? ?around? ?me.? ?Finally,? ?I? ?see? ?my? ?
future? ?as? ?a? ?neutropia.? ?This? ?is? ?the? ?time? ?of? ?my? ?life? ?where? ?both? ?the? ?good? ?and? ?the? ?bad? ?come? ?together? ?
to? ?become? ?one.? ?While? ?writing? ?this,? ?my? ?imagination? ?ran? ?wild.? ?This? ?was? ?when? ?I? ?knew? ?I? ?had? ?a? ?true? ?
passion? ?for? ?writing,? ?and? ?letting? ?my? ?words? ?on? ?paper? ?fuel? ?my? ?imagination.? ?I? ?asked? ?my? ?friends? ?and? ?
my? ?peers? ?to? ?review? ?my? ?writing? ?and? ?they? ?were? ?all? ?pretty? ?impressed? ?with? ?it.? ?There’s? ?just? ?this? ?feeling? ?
you? ?get? ?when? ?you? ?just? ?know? ?you’ve? ?written? ?something? ?amazing.? ?
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I? ?was? ?extremely? ?proud? ?of? ?my? ?work? ?and? ?I? ?felt? ?so? ?satisfied? ?when? ?I? ?finally? ?submitted? ?my? ?work? ?
to? ?my? ?colleges.? ?I? ?can? ?tell? ?that? ?my? ?colleges? ?felt? ?the? ?same? ?way? ?about? ?my? ?writing? ?because? ?although? ?
my? ?grades? ?were? ?shabby,? ?I? ?was? ?accepted? ?to? ?basically? ?all? ?of? ?the? ?ones? ?that? ?I? ?applied? ?to.? ?Throughout? ?
this? ?process,? ?I? ?learned? ?that? ?if? ?I’m? ?confident? ?about? ?my? ?writing,? ?it’ll? ?translate? ?onto? ?the? ?paper? ?and? ?
cause? ?my? ?writing? ?to? ?have? ?a? ?lot? ?more? ?meaning.? ?This? ?essentially? ?pushed? ?me? ?onto? ?loving? ?writing? ?
and? ?becoming? ?a? ?much? ?better? ?writer.? ? ?
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Thinking? ?back,? ?there? ?were? ?many? ?more? ?experiences? ?that? ?I? ?had? ?where? ?I? ?saw? ?how? ?much? ?I? ?
loved? ?writing.? ?Back? ?in? ?middle? ?school,? ?I? ?had? ?written? ?a? ?poem,? ?and? ?it? ?was? ?one? ?that? ?I? ?was? ?proud? ?of.? ?It? ?
was? ?a? ?poem? ?about? ?the? ?importance? ?of? ?family.? ?I? ?was? ?never? ?really? ?praised? ?that? ?much? ?on? ?my? ?writing,? ?
since? ?I? ?was? ?more? ?of? ?a? ?math? ?guy,? ?but? ?I? ?remember? ?this? ?being? ?one? ?of? ?the? ?first? ?times? ?that? ?my? ?teacher? ?
was? ?impressed? ?with? ?my? ?writing.? ?Being? ?able? ?to? ?write? ?about? ?things? ?that? ?I? ?hold? ?close? ?to? ?myself? ?is? ?
really? ?important? ?to? ?me? ?because? ?it’s? ?one? ?of? ?the? ?few? ?ways? ?that? ?I? ?can? ?express? ?myself.? ?
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All? ?in? ?all,? ?I? ?was? ?never? ?really? ?the? ?best? ?writer? ?in? ?the? ?world,? ?but? ?I? ?always? ?enjoyed? ?writing? ?
about? ?emotional? ?things? ?and? ?things? ?that? ?required? ?you? ?to? ?dig? ?deeper? ?into? ?your? ?mind.? ?Family? ?and? ?
friendships? ?are? ?two? ?of? ?my? ?favorite? ?topics? ?to? ?write? ?about.? ?Going? ?forward,? ?I? ?plan? ?to? ?become? ?a? ?
stronger? ?writer? ?and? ?somehow? ?manage? ?to? ?express? ?my? ?feelings? ?with? ?different? ?styles? ?of? ?writing.? ?
Something? ?that? ?I? ?look? ?forward? ?to? ?is? ?writing? ?more? ?poems? ?and? ?stories.? ?
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