For me “This Way for the Gas, Ladies and Gentlemen” is a harsh story to read. It is hard for me to describe how I felt after reading this story. I know generally about the Holocaust, but with the horrible realism described by Borowski, and how the characters perceive their life at Auschwitz is totally different than I have imagined.
“…I am furious, simply furious with these people — furious because I must be here because of them. I feel no pity. I am not sorry they’re going to the gas chamber. Damn them all! I could throw myself at them, beat them with my fists.”
The prisoners were forced to transport corpses to the crematorium. They saw innumerable of other shocking and shameful acts. He hates what he’s doing, but he does not have a choice. He has to listen to the S.S officers and is tasked with making women take dead babies that aren’t even theirs. Instead of feeling pity for the hopeless Jews, he is furious with them. He thinks he is forced to be at the ramp at Auschwitz and experience this horror because of these people. In this moment, he questions: Is he is still the same person he was before the concentration camps. He thinks that the horrible things he’s doing are unforgivable and have changed him into a criminal person. He is looking for hope that he is still a good person by asking his friend, Henry if they are good people.