Who i think i am? I don’t really know. I end up changing myself throughout my life, for the worse or better depending on my situation. Right now i am this lazy guy who hardly wants to do any school work at all. I’m more of an anti-social guy at first, but when i get to know people better that turns around. I’m more or so reserved at times and keep to myself, i get irritated and angered easily, but i try to hold it back in, but i ended up turning violent at a point during my life. Most of the time i’m honest, friendly, and i don’t like being wasteful at all. I’m also an idiot sometimes and i end up reflecting too much on my past mistakes or awkward moments. As a person i end up thinking too much about many things, some which are unnecessary and others far out into the future. But whatever, i don’t care who i am, just as long as i don’t become too much of a burden on myself.
Top three concerns. Doing well in college, mainly academics, so i don’t have a crap future. Getting to know the college better as in regards to all that majors, schedules, professors kinda stuff. Trying to understand college life and how it will affect my future and myself. I may never know if the decisions i make now will either benefit me or worsen my present condition. My three concerns are hard for me to acknowledge and be cognizant of because of my current laid-back, procrastinating personality. It’s like the engine is there but, it just ain’t running.
First thing there is A LOT more people at Baruch college, i was in a small high school, and almost every knew each other, especially people’s secrets >_>. There will be a lot of work and study time i have to devote to college. I’ll have to be on my own most of the time and i’ll need to develop some good study habits and note taking skills which i lack tremendously. Plus…….my essay writing is total crap. That is, it takes me FOREVER, to get shit done. It’s taking me like hours to write this blog, since i do other stuff in between. I think the library is a great place, you can sleep, study, borrow books, and etc. And college is really just up to you. People won’t really care whether you fail or succeed, and it’s your life no one is going to guide you just because they really really love helping everyone. Of course, this is just my opinion.
My first year at college will probably drive me insane. Yup, definitely, with all the readings and stuff. I’m too much of a huge procrastinator, i get distracted by so many things in life. I hope i get out of my bad habits and create some good ones. Overall, i just hope i turn into a more intelligent and responsible person.
