Don't FRO Around

Baruch has definitely given me an experience I didn’t expect. Sometimes I regret not going to a University with its own campus to have that full college experience, but Baruch has definitely left a unforgettable memory, which has lived up to my expectations. My grades this semester have not lived up to my expectations. Nothing yet has exceeded my expectations, but i’m sure I will have an experience at Baruch that will. I think my first semester at Baruch could’ve been completely different, depending on what decisions i have made. I do believe I have grown physically and mentally stronger as a person. I think I also became more independent. I regret not devoting more time to my school work, but I can only strive to do better next semester. I know that my biggest flaw was my inability to time manage, but I’m learning. Thus, that would be something I would work on if I was given a chance to do it all over again. I wouldn’t have wasted time on a lot of things and used my time preciously. When I first came to Baruch I was still a girl who never really experienced any difficulties and someone who was use to depend on someone else’s guidance.

I’m a jokester and proud of it. The ability to induce laughter is one of the best weapons I have at my disposal and it’s very important to me. After all, if you’re too busy laughing and smiling then there is no time left for frowning and crying. My sense of humor allows me to deflect unhappy thoughts, unhappy situations, and unhappy people. It’s a refreshing thing to see someone go from sorrowful to cheerful in seconds. I get a sense of accomplishment. Some people who meet me may think I have a few screws loose or that I’m lacking maturity. I will admit, your average person doesn’t unexpectedly jump on a table or break out in song. At first the awkward stares, glares, and, insults would bother me. I didn’t enjoy being disliked and  it made me feel self conscious. As I got older I realized that although some people were annoyed or creeped out by me, there were others that loved to be around me. I figure if I have friends who don’t mind my zaniness and my affinity for a good time then I must be doing something right. Now I’ve learned to be a much more confident person and to be comfortable with myself one smile at a time.

Hey guys, I can’t really think of much to say in this monologue, so I’ll just talk about what I’m doing at this moment. I’m sitting down doing my monologue, wondering how much should I write. I’m can’t really formulate the specific amount of words or paragraphs this monologue should be, so I’ll just write until my monologue looks nice and big. I’m looking at the ceiling and I noticed how white and clean it is. I sometimes wonder how can dirt ever reach the ceiling at times. I’m drinking a cup of water becomes I’m feeling pretty thirsty right now. Well I’m going to get some last minute studying for my Bio Lab Exam tomorrow, so I’ll end my monologue here. I think writing this much will please my peer mentor.

You only live once right? Yea, I plan on making it a good life. Sure there’s a million responsibilities, but I think to much of life is concerned with pleasing others, your proffessors, peers, parents. Ugh yea so what am I going to do about it? Well, I could get super stressed, freak out about grades, focus on what others will think of me, no thanks. So what sometimes I like to be completely random and be a clown, don’t want to hear the gossip on what your ex-boyfriend did or said, or count how many calories my sandwich has. I rather be told a funny story, something interesting or new in your life than some complaint on how much life sucks. When I get older, I want to go out and see the world; go to places you read about in your textbook and watch on the national geographic channel, there’s only so many good things you can do with the time you’re given. I don’t want to limit myself because half of things people do today were once said to be impossible. I mean everyday we get opportunites to do something new almost everyday, take a risk, overcome a fear. I have a crazy phobia of heights, and next thing I knew I was standing on top of a twenty foot high rock ready to jump into a river. Why did I do this to myself? I wanted to turn around and walk away from it all but then realized, when am I going to really have this exact opportunity again and realized never. I dont want to let silly things get the best of me or bring me down. Seriously, when i’m 95 years old and look back on my life, I dont want to have regrets or go “Oh I should have…”, I want to take my chances, smile way to much, laugh till it hurts, and just enjoy every second I have.