Baruch Voices

Anyways. Last week, on Thursday, we all went to see Baruch Voices IV. The security guard was really loud and there were these programs that were in two different colors. I got an orange one. Anyways, it was pretty interesting except for that guy behind me that kept kicking my seat. I could relate to a lot of the things that were said. Sure, it was interesting, but I was pretty happy when it was over. Sitting there for that long in a dark room; I would have fallen asleep. Anyways, Baruch Voices was awesome and I hope they’ll have it again next year for the incoming freshmen. I think that they would enjoy it as well.

voices

I enjoyed the “Voices” performace a lot.  It was very surprising that people were willing to share the things that they wrote, because many of them were very personal and serious.  I respcted that they felt comfortable sharing these things but itis hard for me to think that I ever would.  The actors in the performance were also very noteworthy, I remember some of them from their performance on convocation day and it was cool to see them perform again.  Overall, I really liked the performance and it felt nice to be a part of such a special event.

Baruch Voices

I actually quite liked the performance because it showed the audience that everyone struggles and everyone has flaws. As well as some monologues having quite a bit of humor in them. The most memorable ones for me were about the girl who got bullied and eventually beat up the guy who hit her just to fit in, the guy who was very “smooth” in the way he expressed his feelings to his girl with “AYO MA!” . I only wish all monologues were shared so I can hear more stories….. SIKE! That would’ve taken so long..

Baruch Voices

It was pretty interesting hearing monologues written by strangers. Some were funny, corny, and random. Others were serious, sad, and stuff I would never be able to share with the whole freshman class. Although we don’t know whose monologue was whose, I believe that those who submitted their monologues to be performed had a lot of courage. One that stuck to my  mind was the one where the speaker was talking about how she regrets not showing respect and love to her mom before she passed away. I can somehow relate cause I sometimes tend to not be the best daughter. I have times when I’m not as nice as I should be to my parents and I tend to block them out of my personal life. I don’t know what I’ll do without my family and I know that if I ever lose one of them, I’ll regret all those times I was rude and selfish. All in all, Voices was a new experience for me and there were many topics spoke about that I could relate to.

reflections

I didnt have many expectations coming into Baruch in August… I didnt want to be in the block I was in, and to be hones, I wasnt to sure what I was even doing at Baruch….but so far my experience has been worthwhile.  Sometimes, my expectations for new things are too high and they are not usually met, but that didn’t happen in this case. I feel like not having any expecations at all was the best possible mindset I could have come in with, looking at where those expecations got me.  Overall, I think my first semester at Baruch went great, I kept up with my work, I made new friends, and I had so much fun. If I had to do this all over again, I wouldnt do anything differently, and I couldnt be happier with the way things have turned out.  The only change I have seen in myself since starting at Baruch is I’ve beome more outgoing and less shy.  It is fun to meet new people and I am glad that I did. Hopefully, next semester goes just as well.

monologue

High school and college is a very different atmosphere. In high school social standing seems extremely important but all that disappears at college. Main focus is grades not that it wasnt at high school but everyone is more concerned. Ihad bad grades in high school but now that im at college i started to get my act together and started working very hard to get good grades.

Monologue

What am I afraid of?  Im afraid of alot of things.  Right now, I’m afraid of failing my math class.  I hate math. If I had to take it again I would die.

What makes me happy? My family makes me happy, I hate being without them, its like there is a hole in my heart.

When Do I feel embarressed?  Everyday…I always do something dumb.  I trip, I say werid things, I run into doors…

Who am I?   I am a girl who never wanted anything more than to get out of Vermont, and now i’d give almost anything to go back.  I am a girl who was always so sure of what I wanted, but now that Im out here alone, its hard to be that girl.  I miss home.  I miss the the memories, my family, the mountains.  I miss climbing those mountains and standing at the top.  I felt so confident, I felt like I could be anything I wanted. I felt like I was someone.  Now, Im just a little fish in a huge pond– a nobody in a sea of somebodys.

Bu I do know one thing. I have to be strong. And I am. I know I will not be persuaded otherwise.  My personal motto is this: If you dont stand for something, youll fall for anything. I swear by that.

 

monologue

It’s hard not having you next to me. It’s hard not being able to see or talk to you whenever I want to. It’s already been about half a year, six months, since you’ve left and I know I should slowly be getting used to it but I’m not. I still miss you more and more every day and this feeling has never changed from day one. I know you left for a good reason and I shouldn’t be selfish for wanting you to quit and come back… but I can’t help it. Even though I talk to you every night and video chat with you almost every week, I still miss you. From seeing you every day to now, seeing you every six months is such a big change. I thought that now that I was entering college and I can keep myself busy, it would all get better, but it’s not. I do want you to know that I’m proud of you and I will always be your number one supporter…. From the start to the end. While you chase your dreams, I’ll try to focus on my future and if everything was meant to be, we’ll still be together four years from now… when you’re done with the Air force, and I’m done with college. I know four years is a long time from now and we can never predict the future, but I really hope we can get through this together. I hope you are forever safe, healthy, strong, and happy. Thank you for making me so happy. Thank you for everything.