There are many things I enjoy doing. My interests include but are not limited to playing basketball, being on the computer, making money, relaxing, and listening to music. I don’t know what I really prefer doing the most but I usually just do whatever comes to my mind and seems like the best thing to do at the moment. A lot of my interests are important to me, but none are more important than my family and friends. Being successful and my education are important to me as well but that would mean nothing if I didn’t have family or friends to share my success with. In order to be successful, I would probably need an education which makes education important to me. I don’t consider people outside my family and friends to be too important but for some reason, the lack of originality in the world really seems to bother me. I can’t stand fake or ignorant people. I seem to hate people who follower others and base their whole life or decisions or others. It may seem very harsh to say that they waste their brain, but that’s how it makes me feel. They don’t make decisions on their own and they can’t seem to be their own person. I also dislike being uncomfortable. I get uncomfortable easily, but for some reason, being cramped and being stuck in small spaces and being very hot seems to bother me the most. It makes me who I am. I prefer the cold of winter over the heat of summer and I am physically active year round so the cold usually doesn’t bother me. I see myself as a person who is very straight forward and reckless. I seem to say and do things on my mind without really thinking about it, and it seems to offend a lot of people around me and someone always seems to get hurt. My greatest accomplishment in my life so far would be graduating high school, being in college and being alive for this long. As a child, I could never see myself as an adult, and now that I’m 18, it still shocks me that I’m so far into my life already. Graduating high school was an accomplishment for me because I was very lazy and could never seem to concentrate too much and I managed to make it through high school. My laziness, lack of motivation and being responsible are going to be the biggest challenges for me. Being social and getting to school on time are also going to be a challenge. Being a commuter school, there isn’t much time for me to socialize like in high school. Baruch is huge compared to my high school with a senior class of only 104 students whom I have grown very fond of. I miss the simplicity of high school and all the people I had to part ways with and its going to be a huge challenge starting over. School so far is going alright, but I’m having trouble paying attention in some classes because they are so boring. I’m scared that I’m going to fail and I for one am afraid to fail. I have no room for failure as a person. I am afraid of things that are out of my reach like death, disease and suffering. The problem is that they are out of everyone’s reach, and not just my own. However, I can greatly influence whether I succeed or fail in life and failure is just not an option so I have to get the most out of my education here at Baruch.
James, thank you for sharing this and for being honest about how you feel about your classes. Being bored is often difficult to get over in class, especially if you do not feel any tie to the material. Try to find something to relate to or engage when your peers share their thoughts. Being an adult is a strange feeling at first, because we are not used to the accountability or responsibilities. One day, you will long for the teenage days! Nice job.