My monologue-william

Plainly put, I am a very normal person that has worries for the future. I am not particularly exceptional in sports or academics and I do not have strong interests in much of anything. I like any type of music, any shows with plot is fine and as long as any person I meet is not getting on my nerves I can work with. Honestly I just want to live life easy, my motto is to really not force myself to do anything if possible. All those questions I think to myself earlier only seem to make my life miserable. I myself think this type of attitude is bad and is not productive, but I like being this way. I still try to put the best of my efforts to keep my career and life intact, but my first thoughts of college made me stressed out. How does one be successful? What is different about me from those who are successful? Can I become successful? Why is it that I worry so much about my future when I do not seem to worry about the present? How should I live my life, the easygoing way or the strenuous way? What is it that I should do? These words keep on echoing in my head whenever I try to relax, I can not even take a nap without thinking somewhat unconsciously about it. Really, I thought college would completely ruin my time to relax and it still does in some ways, but for the most part it is not so bad.

The one issue I have is my time management. College seemed so easy at first. So easy in fact that despite resolving to study hours I goof off and get intensely distracted at trivial things. Watching shows for only half an hour becomes an hour and a half. Relaxing on the couch for just five minutes becomes about forty minutes. When I decide to study I only manage to focus for twenty minutes then I become mentally exhausted and lose interest. Well now I know clearly how college is like and what I am doing wrong, next semester I will better manage my time since I would choose my schedule. What does bother me more is that I cannot clearly see myself in 5 years. There is a lot I am still uncertain about right now concerning my career. I only chose to become an accountant because it seemed like I was really good with math in middle to high school. I can see that may be a mistake. Overall, if I can give one piece of advice to someone, it is that try not to think too hard about things, it may seem bad at first but it may not really be bad at all.