Why is the bus so crowded? The train so full? Every few minutes the F train will arrive yet they all have to squeeze through here and there. Students, office workers, visitors and others all rush from one place to another. When I finally reach Baruch, I am glad I am finally here. I look at the building and realize I will be spending four of more years of my life. I walk confident that I won’t be lost or late but after walking around for a few minutes I don’t know where I’m suppose to be. I quickly took out my phone and search for a campus map and came out blank. There are only a few minutes with no other choice I decide to ask someone who directed me to the library building and I went in to ask out of the security guard. I realize I was searching aimlessly in the wrong building.
That was my first day at Baruch. Looking back now, I realize I came a long way from being a clueless freshman. Thank god I don’t have to rely on my schedule to find my class. The elevators, escalators, and stairs are less confusing and easier to understand. Still, every morning when walk to Baruch, I feel like I’m still lost in this big city. Yes, I come to the city occasionally to hang out with friends or family but it is so different rushing there every morning to class. The trains were never as crowded at 11 or 12 or even 1 but at 7 or 8 AM in the morning all people do is squeeze through the crowd. I look at the people working people rushing around and imagine myself in there shoes. Four years is a long time yet it is also such a short amount of time. Who will I be in the future? But don’t I need to know who I’m now before looking far ahead? I’m a daughter, a sister, a cousin, an aunt, a niece, a friend, a college student, and a high school graduate… All these thing define me but am I all these roles or more? I guess I will figure it out as I experience college.
