Like my friend said, in high school, no matter how bad you are, there will be

somebody worse than you. But in college, if you don’t study, you will be the worst one.

Yes, I am nearly the worst one in my class, at least among my Chinese friends. I do not

understand how I can get zero out of three multiple choices even though I read the

chapter the night before. I mean, many times. Then I say to myself “whatever..”

I did bad in my midterm, but I don’t have any pressure in my grades. I deserve it

because I did not study. Yeah, I did study the night before the test, but it does not mean

anything. Rihgt now, my situation is coming to class, getting sleep, eating food, playing

my phone or doing nothing, and then going home. Sometimes, I feel guilty because I do

not do my work and I will disappoint my family. Then, I might study hard for one or two

days. After few days, I will be lazy again.

I just do not have any interests about what I learn right. This reason may make me

feel comfortable of being lazy. Then I say to myself, “If it is science class or math class, I

should work hard definitely.” I really do not whether or not it is right direction that I

choose to study business, which was my mother’s choice. She said, “accounting is good,

lots of Chinese are doing that.” Then I come to business school because I just do not want

to disappoint her or argue with her.

Fine… Let it be…