Who am I exactly? What am I to you? What do you see in me? Do you see me as more than just a friend? Do you ever see pass my face and appearances? Do you ever think about how I feel? Yeah, we talk and all but I don’t feel like you’ve learned much about me. We have been together for almost a year already, not that I keep count or anything. Do you ever think about what you say before you actually say something? Do you know that your words cut deeply into my head and stay embedded there for a long time? Why do I even bother trying? I’ve been trying for the past year already. I hate being the only one trying. Where is your effort? I doubt myself at times, but I push those thoughts away because I trust you and believe in you. But what do I get? In the end, all I have left is myself. Is there no one out there that I can trust anymore? Is there no one out there that isn’t shallow and materialistic anymore? You tell me, “I can’t only like a person because of their personality, they need to have something to attract me.” First of all, since when did I ever look bad? Okay maybe I am a bit underweight but that doesn’t give you the right to change me as a person. I don’t want to hear from you telling me to gain weight, get bigger, and what clothes to wear. I am not your barbie doll. I do not want to hear from you telling me a time schedule of when I can speak with you, I am not your employee. I am your boyfriend and if I am not going to be treated like one then you will end up not having one. I have learned to look past all these flaws and love you for who you are, but yet you cannot do the same for me. I guess you weren’t the one.
