During the Voices Performace, there were some funny monologues and there were some that were really personal. I decided to make mines personal. I feel like everyone in life goes through struggles, but its those struggles that make you, you. My dad left my mom to take care of four children all alone. This is for him. Here it goes:
Speak?
How can I speak when there are no words
What you did
Has had me torn
Laughter
Is never there
When you smile
It just doesn’t seem fair
You speak
Tell me the truth
Why did you leave us?
When all we ever did was love you
Gone. You left. The door slammed shut.
I didn’t even cry
I was too filled with disgust.
I was so small but I understood
I guess you felt like you were too good
For us
I lost trust
Not only in you, but in everything
In everyone
I felt alone
We had it so hard
My mom fell into depression
My brother was still a baby
But you didn’t care
You never came back
You never wanted to correct it
I lost my best friend
The person I loved the most in the world
But those memories
Are all just a blur
I lost my dad
Sometimes I question
What went wrong?
Was all of it a lie, all along?
We all miss you
We just have a lot of broken feelings
You asked me to speak to you
So now I’m speaking
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Amazing, thank you for sharing. There are many who sympathize with your situation, myself included. Just one of the many reasons we encourage everyone to speak up and share your voices.
This is beautiful, Klaudia.
Thank you for sharing this with us, and I know the feeling. Sort of. My dad walked in and out of my life when I was younger, and it left an emotional toll on me that I still haven’t gotten over, even though we’re on good terms now.
Also, on a lighter note, can you teach me how to pronounce your last name?
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Aww, you’re so sweet! =) And I read your post, its really beautiful.
And my name is actually a lot easier then it looks, believe me. LOl