College is a concept that I’ve been striving towards for as long as I could remember. It seemed that every decision I made in high school, regardless of how minuscule, incorporated the idea of looking desirable on a college app. My senior year was spent planning, applying, and then talking endlessly about future college plans with my peers. Because this has been such a far off idea for most of my life, it seems surreal that here I am, in college, taking on my future head on. I feel as though I’m supposed to say something positive I’ve learned about myself within these first few months of college. Yes I’ve adjusted fairly well to most of my classes, and yes I have tried to stay on top of things. But what I really want to talk about is that I’ve realized how much I suck at change. I viewed college as this great beacon of opportunity and growth for so long, but as I stand here the view is much different. The transition wasn’t great for me. It’s hard to change your scenery and friends so drastically in such a short amount of time. I loved and found comfort in the way my life was this past year, and letting it go made a part of me feel empty. However, two months in I can also say that I’m establishing a different life here at Baruch, one that I’m sure I’ll be missing four years from now. Everything seems so current. This is my future; right here and now. This is where I learn about myself and about who I’d like to become. It’s scary as hell, but most anything that is worthy or significant is.