This image sums up my entire thought process this semester. Due to all the work due at the same time, I have to manage and sort out what i do when. Words like sleep and free time are so rare now that it feels weird not doing something. At times i wonder what to do that isn’t educational. Other times i check over and over that i am not forgetting anything. Even if i have checked and confirmed and reconfirmed my confirmation, i still feel something is missing because i am not used to procrastinating anymore.

Most of the time.

So we had a couple of weeks to do this monologue. In the beginning, i said to myself “Hey this can’t be that hard.” Thinking that i put it off for a couple of days. In that time I thought of things I could write about. First I was thinking if skydiving. I could have talked about how I jumped from the plane as the sun blinded me and the wind pushed me around. Even though it was fun, I was afraid that my parachute wouldn’t open. As I got closer to the ground….. Bla bla bla. Too much fear and fun at the sametime. But the adrenaline rush was amazing. The next thing that came to mind was the college process. I wasn’t the only one who had the fear of not getting into a college.. Right??? When everyone kept saying don’t worry about it or calm down, I would think “oh its no big deal if i dont get into a college. I will only remain jobless for the rest of my life” Too boring and common. After sitting there for hours…. for minutes more like it, I thought, “screw this, taking mad long” I was never so wrong before. This is actually hard. I am just going to write a monologue about writing this monologue……. why didn’t I think of this earlier??????

Subject- Shantanu Patel JMWA-2- make up exam

Hello Professor Anonymous,

I was unable to take the exam due a high fever and headache. I would like to request a date for the make up exam if possible.

Sincerely,

Shantanu Patel

JMWA-2 12:25pm

All American Rejects- Move Along

AJR- I am Ready

Bastille- Bad Blood

Chris Brown- Loyal

Envy- Am I Wrong

Fall out boys- Alone together, Light em up

Im On a Boat

LMFAO- shots

Maroon 5- Maps

All of these songs are a mix of how I relate to my classmates. Some songs represent my past experiences with friends who are also classmates. We have all had those few friends who pretend to be your friend but then are really gossiping behind your back. What the song by All American Rejects taught me, is that you just have to move on  Listening to Maps mad me think of how Baruch is a new start and how easy it is to find new people you can relate with. Bad Blood by Bastille and Loyal, are for those people who just split from the group out of the blue. One friend just left our friend circle that we had since freshman year of high school and her reason was that she wasn’t going to be able to just stick together. On the other hand, there are those friends who stick with you from the moment you met. When i think of Shots and Im On A Boat, it remind me of all the good times we had and will have in the future. This also includes all the new friends i will be making at Baruch.