Since being a student at Baruch, my live has become a lot more busy. I work full time at Starbucks and I am also a full time student. Last year I went to UAlbany, and living on campus, being 10 minutes or less away from my classes enabled me to have so much more sleep and relaxing time to myself. Being at Baruch, as a commuter, that is not possible, especially when I work after school on most days and don’t get home until almost 1am. Sometimes I miss the luxury of being able to wake up 10 minutes before class and throwing on some sweats and still being early to class. I love being a student at Baruch, I just need to adjust to it a little more, because I have no time to relax anymore.

I love my little brothers. They are the best things that have ever happened to me. I have two brothers. One is 13 and the other is 9. I basically raised them because our parents were always working. I especially helped raise the 9 year old because I was older when he was born so I was able to do more for him. I would do anything for my brothers. I would keep their darkest secrets and never tell anyone. They both know that I am their big sister and even though I am not around as much as I used to be before, I am still behind them 100%. They know that they can come to me for anything, no matter what it is, I’ll do my best to help them. I love them both more than life. I even have a tattoo on my wrist to symbolize us as siblings. I look at this tattoo everyday when I think about them or when I miss them.

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***These songs are in no particular order***
Children’s Story- Slick Rick
Fresh Prince of Bel-Air Theme Song- Will Smith
Juicy- Notorious B.I.G.
Brooklyn (We Go Hard)- Jay Z
Thinking Out Loud- Ed Sheeran
Leave Me Alone- Michael Jackson
Isn’t She Lovely- Yami Bolo
Bow Wow (That’s My Name)- Lil Bow Wow
No Sleep ‘Til Brooklyn- Beastie Boys
Beautiful- Eminem
-Children’s Story by Slick Rick is a song that my dad used to rap to me as a baby, and also as I got older. I never really understood what the song was about until I got older and I could listen to the lyrics, but regardless, whenever I hear the song, I hear it in my dad’s voice.
-Fresh Prince of Bel-Air Theme Song is a song that my mother used to sing/rap to me as a very small baby before she passed away. Even though I don’t remember her, I feel nostalgic every time I hear it.
-Juicy by Notorius B.I.G. is a song that was not considered appropriate for a little girl back in the late ’90s, but I grew up listening to that song, and it actually became the song for my senior class in high school. Despite the vulgarity, that song remains in my heart and I know all the lyrics.
-Brooklyn (We Go Hard) by Jay-Z is a song I grew up listening to. Being from Bed-Stuy, Brooklyn, born and raised, I have a lot of pride about where I am from and what I have accomplished thus far in my life despite the negative connotations about where I am from.
-Thinking Out Loud by Ed Sheeran means a lot to me, even though it is not an old song. I feel that it represents my relationship with my boyfriend who I plan to marry and start a family with in the future.
-Leave Me Alone by Michael Jackson was my “theme song” from the age of 14 to about 16. I felt alone and I felt as if I had no one on my side anymore. I became a recluse and I had a small circle of friends. That song clearly expresses the feelings I was having, but wasn’t able to express them.
-Isn’t She Lovely by Yami Bolo, a recreation of the song by Stevie Wonder, means a lot to me. My mother danced with me in her arms to that song at my Christening as a baby. It is one of the few things I have in my life to remind me of her, even though I don’t actually remember; I can feel it.
-Bow Wow (That’s My Name) by Lil Bow Wow was a song that I had on repeat as a young girl. I was in love with Lil Bow Wow, I even thought I would marry him (lol)
-No Sleep ‘Til Brooklyn by The Beastie Boys is another song that I identify with being from Brooklyn. My little brother and I used to play that song on repeat on Guitar Hero because we felt so much pride about where we were from.
-Beautiful by Eminem was a song I identified with all through high school, and I still identify with it. I’ve been told multiple times in my life that I’d be “more beautiful if…”. I felt as if being myself (a tomboyish girl) made me seem not beautiful to people because I was always criticized about the things I liked to wear and the things I liked to do. I loved to play basketball with the boys and wear Jordans; which I still do. I was often called gay, even though I know I am not. This song helped me deal with the criticisms and basically ignore the negative comments by having the “f*ck you” mentality. I realized that life was not about impressing anyone, but about being happy in my own skin despite what other people may think of me.