I understand “If I Told Him” is a very complex poem and relates to cubism.
I guess I am not able to understand it and all it does is irritate
me.  When reading it to myself at first I just noticed my mind rambling on.  I
felt like she was saying a tongue twister.It sounds completely idiotic but I was then thinking about all the tongue twisters I knew.  “She sells seashells by the seashore.  The shellsshe sells are surely seashells.  So if she sells shells on the seashore, I’m sure she sells seashore shells.”  I just wanted to escape every part of Gertrude Stein.

When listening to her I noticed I became very angry.  It sounded like a woman complaining about every little thing.  Like my mother scolding me for
not picking up a little piece of dirt. It escalates from the dirt to not cleaning my room to not making my bed.  How one little thing escalates to the one million other things I do wrong.  She just did not stop speaking.

The last thing that I noticed I was doing while listening and doing the automatic
writing, was I was starting to write in that same annoying form.  I was mocking her but it still made me angrier.  I felt like she was nagging me and my writing was all about making her shut up.  I know my whole opinion sounds really bad but I could not find
any deeper meaning.  I was just so frustrated by what I was either reading or listening to my mind would not let me get anything useful out of it.  I do know now that if I ever am a boxer before I go into the ring I will not listen to music to pump me up.  I will play
this poem and I will get so angry I’d be more than ready to fight.