Oh memory where are you?

I would begin my process of recovering my memory by turning to the people who seem to be very concerned about me, which would be my parents and close friends. I would proceed by first looking at my electronic devices reading messages, notes anything I have written down. Also I would look at pictures and when I consistently see the same people over again, I can get an idea on their contributions and significance towards my existence. As I embark on this journey I know that I face confusion, anxiety,  sadness because I will have too much dependence on external ideas and comments on who I was as a person.  The memories that I would like to keep are the ones related to childhood and my teenage years. I want to be able to keep the positive happy and joyful memories in my memory. I would like to edit out the frightened and negative memories out of my experience as they would pose as externalities that would try to prevent me from doing something. If I get another chance to do something I wouldn’t have to hold regrets of not doing it. Sometimes fear prevents us from taking initiatives. The feeling of should have, could have, or would have are something I don’t want to keep within me. I want to be abke to achieve my full potential as a person so by removing these externalities I think I would have a better chance in doing so.