First of all I would have to find out who I am, my name, where I am coming from etc. To do that I would give my fingerprints to the police so I can find my name. Police would I guess try to help me but I would like to search too. Then I will ask help from “good old” Google. I would find everything about me on internet and pretty soon I would be with my family.
I would not try to find all people I know, because I believe that recovering process would be better and faster if I take it slow. If medication already exist, I wouldn’t rush to try to get all memories with all people I knew. Memories that I had with my family would be probably easier to get back. Before I start therapy with new medication, I would try for a some time to bring memory back without any medicine. If that medicine would exist I think it would have some dangerous side effects. After all it has to do something with the most sensitive part of the brain, and even if it could help me bringing back my memories it can develop some other problem.
My family would be the main source of getting information about me, and depends of what information I get I would think about my next step. If for example they say that I had a girlfriend and we were for long time together and we had a lot of common things, I would go to her, and I would try to remember something. I would ask her or my family about some specific characteristics of me such as some place that I would like to spend time there. I would go to that place in order to get my memories back. Only if after few months there is no improvement I would start with medication, but it would be small doses and all that time that I am using medication people with who I was close before tragedy would be with me, still reminding me about my past experience that in their opinion should left the strongest emotions. If my amygdala is not damaged I would try to recall some tragic moments from my past life, because those memories is easier to recall.
Of course that process of recalling memories of tragic events would not be painless, however I would ask people who are helping me to recover those memories and who were part of them to try to make some slow introduction in order to get me prepared for tragic news.
There is no any memory that I would like to not get back, because that was part of my identity, that was who I am, and if people who were with me when those tragic events occurred can have them, than I would like to get even those memories back. If I choose to not get back bad memories than I would feel that I was somehow privileged and that would be against my personality because I don’t want to have any privilege compered to others. Finally at the end when I recover all my memories would play a game, maybe I would try to seduce some of my girl friends that I liked before accident pretending that I still don’t remember anything and to see they reaction.
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