Meditation: The Meditation of Forgiveness

A. First, take note of the moods you’ve experienced.

I experiences unrest, sleep deprived, and a bit of headache. The cause of the symptoms were exams, tests, and midterms.

B. Assess your overall level of anxiety on a scale of 1 to 10.

The desire of getting a better grade, the concept of work and school really put a toll on my body. There are always these feeling of anxiety and lack of time, So i will rate my anxiety on a scale of 7 out of 10.

C. Assess the level of physical tension in your body- where do you notice the tension? Try rating your overall tension on a scale of 1 to 10.

Due to lack of sleeps, my facial features are usually stiff and droopy. sometimes, the headache can be a pain, especially when i pulled an all nighter.

III. After you have finished your meditation, re-asses your state of mind and body.
A. Reassess your mood on the chart.

Less tense, more relaxed, and sleepy.
B. Reassess your level of anxiety from 1 to 10.

5 out of 10 because New York City is not a great place for meditation, at least not to beginners like me. Too much traffic, too much noise, and the constant sounding of fire/police siren can easily discontinue you from meditating
C. Reasses your level of physical tension and rate it from 1 to 10.

3 out of 10 because, my facial features such as eye sacs, center of my head, and the spot above my ears are becoming less tense and stiff.

IV. Describe the experience– What type of meditation did you choose? Describe what was going on in your mind and your body, what kind of thoughts and sensations did you experience during the meditation? Were there any challenging or frustrating aspects of the experience, and if so, what were they? Would you try this again in the future? Why or why not?

I chose the Forgiveness Meditation. Well, the meditation itself makes my mind remain in a state of calmness. For some reason, the meditation of forgiving keep brought up the memories of guilt i felt, and the process makes me push aside the guilt, even though the meditation itself talks nothing about forgiveness, the the name of the meditation unconsciously makes me think of guilt during the process of meditating . The meditation certainly helps me a lot by coping with stress, anxiety, and sleep deprivation, but i am not really sure if i will do the meditation in a daily scale, as it is time consuming and gives me the urge to sleep after the mediation. I really like the breathing techniques in the meditation because it can easily be used to relax the mind. I am not gonna lie, this meditation itself somehow makes me in control of my dream, in other word, the lucid dreaming.  After the meditation, my body is in a state of rest, yet my mind are active and knows what happen.

P.S. i don’t think i will try this meditation often because it freaks me out. I mean, i rarely had a dream where i am in control before, as a result, the experience makes me wonder if there is more to meditation than just relax the mind.