My first meditation experience.
The last month and a half has been extremely stressful for me. I have started a new job, while holding on to my previous one. Now I am working six days a week, at two very different schedules and trying to juggle it all with school. The extra income is the goal, but the toll on my body and brain is excruciating. I have been waking up with a headache every morning for the past 2 weeks or so, and it usually goes away with my coffee fix. I used to get those headaches only when I did not have a cup of coffee before 12.00pm, now i wake up with one every single morning.
My anxiety level is probably a 9, because I am worried that I will not be able to keep up with everything and that my body will fall apart. I am definitely more than stressed out at this point.
The tension in my body is in my shoulders and my lower back and can be rated at a 9 as well.
I started this meditation totally as an assignment, which is the reason why I choose the same exercise as the professor. Going into it, I did not expect much, but was hoping for a somewhat refreshing outcome. I got a lot more than I expected. At the beginning of the meditation, “Rolling in the Deep” from Adele kept on playing in my head, because I had just listened to it. It did not completely go away throughout the whole experience, but it was in and out. As I focused on my breathing, I could feel the muscles in my neck relax, and my head swung forward at a snail pace. It felt extremely good, as my body was relaxing. My shoulders felt lowered and my breathing was loud at times. Unfortunately, I had crossed my legs under me, and somewhere past the halftime, my right leg started cramping. It got so bad that I could not remove it from under me, without the help of my left hand. I was careful enough not to be rough with it, because I still wanted to attain the end of the meditation. As I lowered my right leg to the ground, a huge grin came upon my face and would not go away. I was not sure why I was smiling, but I could feel the muscles in my face stretching form one ear to the other. It lasted a good few minutes. Then it went away gradually.
I can’t say that I will not be anxious tomorrow, but tonight, I feel really good. I called my best friend and recommended that she tries it too sometime. My shoulders are loosened and for my back, I am not too sure, I am still seated, so we will see when I get up.
My anxiety level is about a 5 right now and the tension in my body around 2 or 3.
I am glad that we got this assignment at this time in the semester, because I got to appreciate it and I will repeat it as soon I get a chance.
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