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In the case that I suffered from retrograde amnesia but had the opportunity to regain my memories through medication and guidance I would philosophize. “Do memories help make me who i am? yes”.   At this point I would say “it is impossible to know who i am without knowing what I have experienced therefore it is vital to remember everything”.  My conclusion is that all memories are valuable in a good way, never bad.  This is justified by every experience in life, good or bad, having intrinsic value to knowledge.  To refute a single memory would be denying myself knowledge.

I would initially not know who to trust to help guide me through the memory recovery process.  I would therefore initially not tell anyone that I had lost my memory.  All that i would do would be go to my usual “hangout spots” and coheres my friends to talk about our past. (this is under the principal that while i may not know their name or our relation I can still recognize them) This charade can not last forever so inevitably I would have to tell them that i lost my memory.  Hopefully however this deception would have bought me enough time that I gained a good perspective of individual relationships and the degree I can trust each person. (just thinking this way would lead me to ask why am i so non-trusting?) So my first step was, to the best of my abilities, resume normal life.

I can imagine this being an emotional roller-coaster.  Remembering all the good times would seem okay but remembering all the bad times would open deep wounds.  This is because while i can look back at my good memories favorably they do not excite the same emotions as was had while experiencing them.  For the bad memories however negative emotions seem to have stronger bonds.  How many times do you think about something you have done, maybe years ago, and say to yourself “man that was so stupid, embarrassing,etc” then, afterwords, you feel bad?  It seems like that happens more frequently than the opposite, having a good memory then feeling good.  All this being said i will remind myself that it is for the ascertainment of knowledge and since I got over it once so can I again. Push Forward!

Through the whole process the reason why I will feel the most frustrated is the fact that i have to spend all this time actively remembering what i once knew instead of experiencing new things and learning more. The one thing that i would want to remember above all else is that no matter what happens in life you better make the best of it because it is the only one you get, live with no regrets because spending time thinking about them will only inhibit the potential of how great you can become.