I am the type of person to never take the time to make sure if I am okay, which is obviously not okay. I go out of my way, both left and right, to make sure that everyone around me is in their best state, no matter how little or big my help may be. When it comes to people I am extremely close to, if I have to sacrifice my happiness to make them feel better, I wouldn’t even think twice to do so. I see it as both a weakness and a strength but lately

I feel nothing but

a weight on my shoulders, I

might just be losing

Losing, a sense of how I actually am. I realized that lately I have been anxious about what tomorrow might hold and even the slightest things bother me. I constantly find myself thinking about every type of scenario that can happen without a reason too. Its like my mind wonders and it is not in my hands to control it. Work at home, work at school, even with people I, on a daily, put up with can feel like factor to the overthinking my mind can do. Satori is one Zen principle that focuses on the natural state. Natural state being that the harmony between body and the mind. Although it is difficult to reach a point, one way to attempt this harmony is through mediation. When I reach high levels of stress, I sit back and mediate and find myself more calm, less worried and able to concentrate more.

Its a distraction

A private trip just for me

To be more at ease

I learned about mediation through my counselors in Baruch and my aunt does a little of it. I had probably the same reaction that many have. Which is “uh no, not for me.” But never say never, life is all about discovering things, taking risks and doing things that you never thought you would ever even have an interest in. I’ve learned that I make better decisions when I am in tune with myself than when I am stressed out and I promised myself after I noticed that change, that I would do it more often.

Better decisions,

Equals more of a stable mind

Happiness is key.