I was going to watch this film late at night, but as soon as I started and saw that it’s filmed in the ICU, I decided to leave it for the daytime because I know that if I watch it at night, I won’t sleep the whole night. I have always wanted to be a doctor and especially an ICU physician; however, after watching this documentary, I’m thrilled that I didn’t go to medical school. I know I can’t ever make decisions about other’s lives.
Although the patients and their families are in the most challenging and painful moments of their lives, I believe the physicians are in a much worse situation. The pain that each family suffers through a certain period these doctors suffer throughout their lives. Further, Dr. Jessica Zitter’s task of helping families make end-of-life decisions on their loved ones is harder for her than for them. The conclusion that these families take is based on the information she tells them, so in a way, she is responsible for the decision that’s going to be taken. One of the most painful moment for on was when Selena’s daughter was talking to dr. Zitter about doctor’s knowledge thinking they can create miracles to save her mother. I felt the pressure that these doctors face is unimaginable. I feel the pain that these families sufferers, but I believe it was more painful for the doctors.
Watching this documentary during a pandemic that causes millions of people to go on ventilator machines made me think of the pain these people and physicians suffered during the Covid-19 pandemic. I honestly can’t be more grateful for these heroes than I’m now.