Debesh Pant
Writing was always an obstacle for me. I hated it for as long as I can remember, hated it even more after I moved to America. You see I wasn’t born here: I came to America 5 years ago, yeah I was able to learn how to speak properly by constantly watching shows or talking to friends, but I couldn’t make my writing better by that. Things are different now, this semester and this class was able to help me find my own style.
I don’t like opening up to people, I don’t like telling people how I feel. This is a habit I have always carried. I also have a bad history related to opening up; I truly and honestly only opened up to one person in my life and that person took advantage of that and used it to hurt me multiple times. You need to let your emotions out if you don’t let your emotions out you will hurt yourself emotionally. This class taught me how to open up through writing.
I’m proud of my first essay. Even though my second and third are better I am proudest of my first essay. I was never able to talk about my past, I wouldn’t even try because I knew I would feel very weak and vulnerable. However, I took a risk while writing the first essay I tried to open up; and I was able to do it, I was able to open up by writing and it didn’t make me feel weak instead it made me feel powerful.
When I write, I write with emotions. When I write I want my readers to understand my story. This is my writing style……….
Debesh, Thanks for sharing this reflection (but did you really post it at 4 a.m.???)! I appreciate your honesty here, and I agree with you that your first essay was memorable because it reflected your own truthful account of certain aspects of your childhood and an exploration of how these experiences affected your identity. We all have complicated personal stories, and one of the challenges of adulthood is figuring out how to understand and sometimes transcend some of the more painful elements of our stories. Your recollections about being at boarding school from such a young age and of the ways that complicated your relationships with your family members have stuck with me – that is definitely a sign of a successful piece of writing! Have a wonderful witner break, and please feel free to come say hello in the new year!
Professor Sylvor