Not for anyone else.

I was a rather skinny kid growing up. I did not feel comfortable in my body, mostly because I was teased a lot. As a result, I was always conscious of my physique. I decided to make a change in my junior year of high school. At the end of fall, I began working out and started a “bulking” diet. Bulking is when you consume more calories than what you usually do in a day-to-day basis. In turn, you will gain more weight. Within 1-2 months, I gained 20 pounds with the consistency of my diet and training. When I came back to school from the winter break, there was a noticeable change in my body. I started getting compliments and people started noticing this change. I started to develop a deep love for this process, so I continued it. Around that same time, I was looking at youtube videos and websites to improve my physique. Only to find out that almost all of the fitness icons were on steroids. So, I decided to juice up a bit. I’m just kidding. On a more serious note, I used to compare my body to these fitness gurus and only to find out that they were on performance enhancing drugs which made me angry.However,I came to a realization. I questioned my reasoning for working out, and I wasn’t pleased with my answer. I became aware that I was doing it to be accepted by others and I was continuously fishing for compliments. I decided to change my motivational references and started working out for myself. I immediately saw a change in my happiness because I didn’t care what people had to say about me.Eventually, I started becoming independent and started doing things for myself, not for anyone else.