I often find myself lost in thought. It doesn’t really matter where I am. I can be at home procrastinating, school in a class that isn’t particularly interesting, or on the train while I stare at the person in front of me. I always have the most random thoughts. I can have fake arguments that will most definitely never happen, but you never know right? I might think about how there are parallel universes and the other me’s are using their time more efficiently or maybe worse.

I’m not much of a science person, but I believe that there are parallel universes. It sounds beyond crazy, but I seriously think that there is another me who has her whole life figured out. Someone who goes to sleep at a regular time and wakes up early in the morning. She would be someone who is always caught up with the current events, stocks, but would still have time to have fun. She is someone who always drinks eight cups of water a day, eats three meals a day, and exercises on a daily basis. She has a stable job and is loved by all her family and friends.

Although that is all a fantasy me that I’ve have led myself to believe exists somewhere in the galaxy, there is someone out there on Earth who lives their life like that. Someone who lives the perfect life that I wish I had. Thinking about the 18 year-old self that I am in reality gives me a strong feeling of displacement. What am I doing with my life? I’m most definitely not the only one who fights this inner struggle, but at the same time, everyone has a different experiment with it. It’s not as if I have no goals in life or standards I set for myself to meet. Getting to know myself better over time is the only solution I have to that question. I might not be the person I want to be now, but the path to success is not an easy one to find. I may feel lost now, but soon I will learn more about what I want to do with my life and soon build up myself to be the person I want to be.