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These past three months at Baruch have passed quite quickly. I found that college wasn’t what I imagined it to be. A lot of my plans and goals from the start of the year have already died. Everyday is rather mundane and redundant. The long hours sitting in lectures makes me pass out. I knew that I was going to sleep in class eventually but I did not expect to pass out every class within the first month of school. The two memes above pretty much sums up the past 3 months of Baruch so far. I found myself procrastinating as usual and getting subpar grades. I know that what I’m doing right now is exactly how I should not be starting my 4 years at college but being lazy is too addicting. I still start studying right before an exam and do my assignments minutes before they are due but I’m managing. College feels like high school # 2 in a way but that’s probably because this is a commute school.

This is a picture I taken of Baruch college. I have come to this place for the past few months to further my knowledge. I was able to learn things that I never knew before. I feel really glad that I came here. I have come here aiming for A’s but it is not so simple. Each class has there own uniqueness and challenges. I faced all these challenges and so far none has been able to overwhelm me. During the time that I am not in class, I eat food or try to help a friend or maybe attempt to take a nap(So far I have not been able to fall asleep during the break). I have met some interesting people and have joined an interesting club. A lot of these people I meet are very nice or have a pretty decent personally. The teachers I currently have are all wonderful. There have been many boring lectures that try to put me to sleep but there are lectures that are extremely interesting.

I chose the first meme because it shows how seldom one may use an expensive textbook in class. From my experiences thus far in Baruch it was unnecessary for me to buy some of my textbooks at full price. It would also have been much wiser of me to purchase the e-books which would make bringing in textbooks everyday less of a burden. Although I do not have many complaints about Baruch, I do feel that students should have been told about this common occurrence. Nonetheless I do find these textbooks to be a helpful study guide. Because I paid good money for these books I find myself to appreciate them more and keep them in good condition. I also realized that if you feel a book has not been worth the money you could always sell it after the semester.

The second meme shows how I feel whenever I find myself free during the semester. I am always worried that I am not aware of an upcoming assignment. I frequently check my syllabus’s to be sure.  However in most cases I have actually been able to complete all the work on time and am able to utilize my free time. So far in Baruch I’ve had more free time than I ever did in high school. This has been a really nice adjustment to my schedule. I find that with more free time I am able to focus more on keeping close with family friends. Knowing that I will have free time allows me to put more effort into my assignments and studying. I find that I no longer rush while doing my schoolwork. Free time has helped me throughout the semester by allowing me to unwind after stressful moments of school. I find that these moments of free time are necessary to keeping a level mind when exams start rolling in.

(I think credit goes to Horrorcat from Tumblr?)

I think that about sums up my everyday life as a college student. High school too, if that matters. Always sleep deprived, but unable to fall asleep at night, I can’t help but begin to think that I’m nocturnal or something. Maybe I should take night classes instead, but I don’t want to mess up an already messed up cycle. That should not be an option. Besides, I need all the sun I can, I’ve heard it’s not good for me, to dislike sunlight as much as I. The walk from home to school to home is the only time I get some sun, take that away, and someone will eventually claim me a vampire, and rightfully so. I’d suspect myself of vampirism if I could see myself from another’s shoe. If I was an animal, I’d be an owl, or even a bat, perhaps a sloth, that would make sense for a variety of reasons. But I digress. My point is, I need some sleep. Or maybe less sleep, at least at school. Less at school, more at home, if you know what I mean. Thanks, circadian rhythm…

Tests. I hate that shit. Maybe tests are easy for you. But to me? No. Look, I can give you excuses but the fact is that no one cares for bullshit. College students are often bombarded with tests especially before the holidays. Don’t get me wrong, I like it here so far. Meeting new people is always great. I also have mad free time. But that free time soon turns into studying. And if you haven’t already started, you end up cramming. That’s when you feel like throwing your book out the window. You are always studying for the next upcoming test. I had a math test today. (I died a little on the inside) I also have a another test tomorrow. I get that college is to prepare you for the real world and you can’t do anything without a degree. But damn, just constant test after test. It gets old real fast.

I expected to be able to make many friends and plan out my future in college, but from the few months I spent in college I failed to do any of that. Everyday I come into college and see all the other students with plans and ideas of their futures, and I see myself and I have nothing. College honestly feels like high school except with more freedom outside of class. I still go to classes just to leave for home the second I finish the last class in my day. I don’t spend much time in clubs since I don’t have any friends to go to clubs with. Everyone says that clubs are a great opportunity to make friends, well I disagree almost completely. Clubs are a place for people to spend time with existing friends, if you know no one then no one will take to you. I don’t blame them talking to strangers is scary, and I wouldn’t talk to someone I don’t know either, plus I never know what to do or say around others without looking like a complete idiotic buffoon. The work load is honestly not as bad as some people made it out to be, I still find myself with a lot of time on my hands to waste on games and anime. Also everyone in Baruch seem serious about what their doing while I might be too relaxed … just maybe.

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Anime =P

hahahahaha who actually read this XD

To my surprise, college has been a lot easier than I anticipated it would be. People always told me that I would be swimming in free time and I was incredulous of their claims until I’ve experienced it firsthand. The abundance of spare time has led to smooth sailing and periods of no worry. Looking back, I REALLY should have utilized those times to my advantage, but yet again, laziness prevails. The potholes occur when professors occasionally  assign work and I put it off until the last minute which results in immense stress for me and no sleep.

Besides that, I’m surprised that Baruch is academically rather challenging (no offense). To my horror and disdain, I am not performing as well as I could be and that bothers me…..a lot. I keep telling myself that I need to get my act together but I feel like it’s too late. I don’t know, we’ll see.

So… my first impressions on the first three months of college… tiring and stressful. Back in high school, I barely studied and went online for hours and hours after school. In college, there is just so much work to do because teachers try to cram one class into only half a year. Sometimes, I feel like I am just memorizing words that don’t even make sense to me. What is the point of cramming all this material if I forget all the information immediately after the test? I feel that college should offer classes that are actually beneficial in the real world, such as self defense classes or something else that’s useful. Also, we have a lot of freedom in choosing our classes, which is a blessing as well as a curse. For instance, I just chose my schedule for the spring semester of 2015 and I absolutely hate it. Not only do I start school at 7:50 AM every morning, I am also taking six classes. Sometimes, I rather they just give us a schedule so even if it sucks, we can say that it wasn’t our fault. However, I chose my own schedule and I’m not happy with it. On to another topic, the long breaks. Besides doing homework and studying, there is not much do to around here. Clubs are only every Thursdays and I don’t like how almost every club has like over forty people. I don’t feel that I get make friends in such a huge group setting. During the long breaks, I get extremely exhausted and just want to go home and sleep, because I just can’t sleep at school for some reason. Well, I should feel grateful because at least I don’t have like over four hour breaks like some other people at Baruch. Anyways, to explain the animated gif I posted, it was because after I met with some old high school friends about two weeks ago, they said I look horrible, probably due to my dark under eyes and dazed eye expression. I replied, it was because of college.

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Now that I am older and I am in college I’ve been making more decisions about what makes me happy. What kind of music I really like, the friends I really care about and all the different things I want. I’ve come to the conclusion that the thing I want most right now, out of anything in my life is simply a Dog. People with pet dogs don’t realize how lucky they are. When you think nobody cares about you, you can just think about your dog. Your dog probably thinks you’re the best person in the world. You can cuddle with them at night and take walks with them during the day. You can even dress them up in cute sweaters, jackets, and doggy shoes. I’m not allowed to have a pet Dog right now, but the thought of having dogs inspires me to work harder and focus on graduating from college with the skills I need to get a high paying job. And with that job I’ll be able to move out quicker and support myself and my future 5 Dogs.